Oops, I fell

2010-02-06T19:54:00.002+08:00

Here's my new link. I may or may not be updating this blog from now onwards. akumademoiselle.wordpress.com

Though I have to say I feel like changing the URL to bienagiter.wordpress.com I think bien agiter means shake well in french. LOL. I saw it on Shara's liquid paper. ^^V

2010-02-02T21:33:00.001+08:00

Blehdy hell!! She has a boyfriend?! *slaps self* One, I cant wait to see who. Two, I wanna see her get married. I'm talking about Colbie Caillat not your mum. -.-

2010-02-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

I'm trying my very best to get mum to get me the Colbie Caillat merchandise bundle. *sulks* Received an email today from Colbie Caillat's official web and so, it states there that there is a promotion thing. *melts* AND IT'S ONLY $50!! AND IT HAS THE HOODIE THAT I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED!!! MAMA!! I WANT! I PASSED MY MATHS TEST!! Hmph. http://stores.allaccesstoday.com/popup.aspx?src=images/Product/large/1935.jpg Check it yo. LOL. Anyway, I passed my maths test, did I told you that? OH, CONGRATS COLBIE CAILLAT!!!! Hell yeah Travis, she WON an award, together with Jason Mraz. :) i *heart* Colbie. Btw, I'm changing to Wordpress. :D

2010-01-31T20:26:00.004+08:00

I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you.

Somehow its stuck in my head. What can I do? What can I say? I think I'm falling for you. Oh *insert name* you drive me crazy half of the time.

Ok, screw that *do the screw you sign*. I need to get a grip of myself. You're married to 2 instruments and 1 homosapien. Isnt that enough? You even have a kid. Half metal half wood somemore. *smacks face*

Right, hello there. I wish I could upload photos especially the photo of my toilet which has no door. .__. Sadly, the contractor made the wrong measurements for the new door that it couldnt fit the toilet door thingy. So 4 of us have to share my parent's toilet. -.- Imagine everyone having diarrhoea. .__. Oh look!! THERE'S A BEETLE ON MY BED BESIDE ME!!! Maybe it got attracted to the song I was switching on. Righhhht. Anyway, back to topic. I didnt sleep well last night all thanks to *plays fanfare* THE WEIRD SOUNDS COMING FROM THE TOILET NEAR THE LIVING ROOM! Oh hell yeah, I was scared. Honeybee had an early night last night cause he was sick and so couldnt wait up for me. :( Since I'm not used to shutting my room door when I'm sleeping, I couldnt do much. I just kept quiet. To be exact silent. :( Slept late last night, like around 1 am or so.

Maybe I should control my temper? But how? I wish I had the key to all my answers so that I could open it up and read them. I wish I knew who to choose at this current moment. I wish he was texting me. I wish we could be bestfriends again. I wish he wouldnt have left me here. I wish he is still here, cracking retarded jokes and reading me stories. :) I should have treasured the past more if I knew what was coming.

I'm a failure. I'm not sure why.

2010-01-29T23:34:00.002+08:00

Read his blog. Found nothing of me. Saw a few rants. I nearly slept on mum's laptop. Honeybee is fast asleep, I bet. I'm still here. awake, frozen, cold. .___.

"If I were to say I need you, what would you reply?"
"Hell yeah, I'll be there. LOL."
"Merepek la! I'm serious ok!"
"I'll be there. :)"

I wish that was it. Life is a mess. You have got to clean up every piece of garbage you can find.

GUESS WHAT?! I JUST REMEMBERED TO POST THIS!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA!! JOLYNA'S SCHOOL BAG IS A "LAPTOP BAG" THAT IS LIKE A TROLLEY THINGY!! HAHHAAHA!! Mr Gopal even said this to her, "Eh this is a school, not a shopping centre." when she started to pull her bag like a trolley. *laughs till choke* And her RETARDED reason is, "My mother ah. I tell her, 'I dont want. I dont want this type of bag!' but she still buy for me." I swear I felt like asking, "Was the bag meant for your siblings?" HAHA! I find the bag, adorably horrible. :D So childish sia. I know la you're trying to save your back but, Ya Allah! Tak payah la kau nak bawak bag macam gitu. MEMALUKAN MASYARAKAT!! *kekek*

2010-01-29T22:48:00.003+08:00

Hello! I havent been updating much, why?! CAUSE I'M BUSY AND BOTH MY COMPUTER HAS NOW CRASHED (well, I think it has crashed. I'm not sure.) anyway, be happy I'm updating. I know you missed me, LMAO. I *heart* honeybee. :) I'm on the phone with him, talking bout Sentosa and the prices per entrance. Stay with me, honeybee. :D I'll promise to ~~smack~~ care for you.:D

Oh, school is a bore. Band has never been this boring, before. WE ARE TAKING PART IN SIBF!! ^^ I think we are going to participate la. -.- We didnt get to change our POA teacher. I just got to know that our POA teacher has only taught POA for only a month and my class is the guinea pig class. Oops. Band is such a bore. I have so much to complain yet not sure where / how / who to talk to about my problems. Ok, I have honeybee, Shara, Amirul Hariz, Sabrina (not really la, we're having a tiff), I remember writing my problems in my English journal for Ms Rachel Teo to read. ): I miss writing journal. I miss being a primary school kiddie. I miss Allayarham Mr Roslan. I miss how band used to be so fun. I miss my daily routine. I miss my old smile. I miss my randomness. I miss my thoughts. I miss being alone. I miss Syabil. ): I'm not sure if my feelings are true but I have a feeling of falling in love with someone else. I miss Syabil and our retarded laughters and our calls that will not end till past midnight. ): I miss conferencing with 3 other guys and being the only girl speaking up for the girls' rights eventhough they will alwys win. I miss how we share our problems and me ending up tearing (but they didnt notice me). I miss how Syabil or Syaqil start a fight with one another and Syabil saying this, "Later Ayah come in la! Keep quiet la! Later I'm the one to blame you know!" LOL. I miss waking up the next day looking like a zombie. :D

2010-01-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

LUCKY

I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO.

STAY WITH ME.

DON'T HOLD ME DOWN.

HELLO.

USE SOMEBODY.

CIRCLES.

BUBBLY.

FALLIN' FOR YOU!

I'm in love. ♥ :) ☺I ♥ HONEYBEE. blehdy hell, I havent completed my assignments. ):

I MISS HONEYBEE.

2010-01-22T15:48:00.005+08:00

Heelloo there. Oh, I've been rather busy. Like blehdy busy. *points to Band* Yesterday was the actual SCDF performance. ^^ AWESOMENESS!! I SAW FAQIH DURING THE RECEPTION! I was like overjoyed. LOL. He hasnt change since the last time I met him. Ok, he looks rather decent yesterday than his usual weirdo self. ._____. AND, Ms Teo thought Faqih was my brother or boyfriend. She wanted to tell us to gather to take photos on the stage, and so this was what happened,

Ms Teo: Ok, gather up there on stage already
Me: *Offers Faqih my half eaten ice cream* Eh Faqih, you want not? *turns to Ms Teo* Huh? Now? Tsk.
Faqih: Eh, I finish it ah. So little.
Me: Aiya, whatever la. I need to hurry already.
Ms Teo: Your brother ah?
Me: Uh, no.
Ms Teo: Your boyfriend ah?
Me: *points to Faqih who has already swallowed the whole ice cream cone* Eeee. No way! LOL.

Then Ms Teo walked off. And I had to leave. ): BUT, before I left the reception area, I managed to wave to Faqih who suddenly went missing when i turned. .___.

Aqilah and Izza said I can be a newsreporter when I'm older. ._. Mainly because, Aqilah thinks my voice fits the job as a pembaca berita whereas Izza thinks I can be a pembaca berita cause I can say "salam sejahtera" so fluently and I have the accent of a pembaca berita. But, sadly I forgot to ask if I could be a Malay pembaca berita or an English one? And my right eyelid was swollen. .__. Thanks to a mosquito bite. When I got home, the part below my left eye (where there is always eyebags and dark circles) was swollen thanks to another mosquito bite. -.- My eyes attracts mosquitoes. -.-

Is my spoken Malay really that baku and perfect? BLEHDY HELL! I WANT MY MALAY SLANG AGAIN!!!

2010-01-19T17:22:00.005+08:00

verse1:

Hello there, I'm the one who's waving at ya

and I have something I'd like to say

Hello there, if you could lean a little closer

you could hear the secret I gotta share

Get butterflies when you smile at me

as you walk on by meas I'm sitting here

Hello there, can someone tell me what to do

because I'm lost with words when I'm with you

prechorus:

Maybe I like you just a little

Maybe I like you, a lot

Baby I'm standing in the middle

Do you notice, do you notice me

chorus:

Boy, don't you dare stop your smiling

I promise you the rain will stop any day

Boy, if you're ever getting lost

you know my hand is not, too far away

from yours

do do do......

verse2:

Hello there, if you would please give me a piece of your heart

I promise to give you mine

Hello there,

I'd guard it with my life with safety pins and glue

and with masking tape and screws

and there's nothing you could do

because...

prechorus:

Maybe I like you just a little

Maybe I like you, a lot

Baby I'm standing in the middle

Do you notice, do you notice me

chorus2:

Boy, don't you dare stop your smilin

gI promise you the rain will stop any day

Boy, if you're ever getting lost you know my

hand is not, too far away fromyours,

you know the night has never been so clear

the milky way is swirling above us

now, we'll be dancing in the moonlight

counting stars at great heights

one by one

tonight...................do do dooo.....million

Hello there, my knees are skinned my shoes are lost

can't chase pavements if our roads never cross

I'm in love with her WONDERFUL voice. :) It's just so heavenly. ^^V and she sounds abit like Colbie Caillat. :D That's what I like and I'm blehdy jealous.

So, honeybee promised he wold save up money for our 4th monthsary which is 9 days after my birthday. SO it's like a double surprise thing. LOL. ♥ honeybee. :) And I wont let that Whore steal you away from me. *starts poking Whore using middle finger and starts doing the "screw you" hand sign* LOL. Oh, Ms Julya Chan made me thought that I was hallucinating or day dreaming cause SHE LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE MS WEN WHEN SHE CAME INTO THE CLASS. I was like "My blehdy hell. Am I hallucinating or something?" . SCDF YESTERDAY WAS FUN! Minus the part that I had stomach cramp thanks to *insert your own word*. So, we, band members were "dismissed" earlier, well actually we only skipped assembly which was the last two periods. The bus was uber late. -.- AND, Aliyah chose me to be in some God knows what thing she made me joined. I only know that there's Edrie, Aliyah, Travis and me. Yes, I'm the only 3E4 kiddie. ): BUT WE'RE GOOD FRIENDS! Especially Travis and I. :D We have been buddies since primary school, dude / dudette. :D I remember Aliyah said its at Rivervalley Sec and we're representing our school. O.O AND, MS TEO WAS THE ONE THAT TOLD ALIYAH TO CHOOSE THE KIDDIES (well that's what Aliyah told me) . Ok, so I'm blehdy nervous and starting to regret what I've said to Aliyah. Oh, nevermind. So, Mei Hwa wasnt in school and didnt go

for the rehearsal cause she has sore eyes and ELVIS LEOK YI KIAT (I forgot how

to spell his Chinese name!!) said Mei Hwa has sore eyes cause

she looked in the mirror for too long and if she had stared

longer, SHE COULD TURN BLIND. Blehdy evil sia Elvis!

2010-01-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

I looked horrible. The reason why I'm posting tons, of posts is cause I realised I havent been updating much. .__. MY HAIR IS GETTING BROWN-ier. Blehdy hell. I cant see my veins popping out in this photo. -.- AND I WASNT EVEN STRUMMING. Bleahh.

2010-01-17T20:57:00.001+08:00

If everything were to be my fault, I would have been in a fucking big shit of trouble. FUCK YOU! Who the fuck do you think you are?! You raised your voice can ah? I have MY RIGHTS! AND I WILL FIGHT FOR IT!

2010-01-17T20:24:00.002+08:00

I WANT CONTACT LENS! *starts poking mum*

MUM IS HOME! ^^ I LOVE YOU MUMMY! She was home since last Thursday. *blank face* Yesterday was tuition. Woke up at 8+ am to only realize that I was the only one awake and dad didnt make my milo and breakfast (oh, hell yeah I'm one pampered kiddie). Had to rush, (and guess what? I only realized that I didnt shampoo my hair when I got out of the toilet) ate my breakfast (that I made myself ^^ and ended up nearly scalding my whole mouth thanks to the UBER HOT milo), kissed mum goodbye, went out, missed tht 241 bus, waited, reached Boon Lay Interchange, topped up Ez-link (or wtv you call it nowadays), rushed to board 180 but missed it, took 180 at 9.20 (40 minutes before my tuition starts), reached Bukit Panjang, ran to Aunty's house and reached there at 10.05 sharp (5 mins late), rang mum, started tuition, finished tuition, ate at Aunty's house, dad picked me up, got lost when dad was driving and busy chatting on the phone with Aunty and reached home. (Boring post. -.-)

I ♥ MYSELF / him / her / them / YOU.

Falling in love? Oh, hell yeah.
How long? It seems forever.
Will it last? I hope so. ^^
Do you love him? I do, but rather in love with him.
So who is he? Only people that are naive will believe me when I say he is Hafiz. HAHA!
So who is it? Oh, it's him. Him, who I'm in love with and adores me. It's a secret between us. :)

2010-01-14T17:07:00.003+08:00

If we find that our vision is blinding,

we should slow down and maybe we will find it,

every heart just needs a little time to grow,

If we grow through a little bit of hard times,

You should know that to fix it it'll take time,

baby hold on before we start to lose control,

Oh, what can I say,

What can I do,

How do we change,

I'm not gonna lose you!

If the world stops turning,

If the sun stops burning,

When the cold wind starts to blow,

I'm gonna let'cha know,

oh, I'll never let'cha go,

When you feel like breaking,

when your heart keeps waiting,

when the tears begin to fall,

I'm gonna let'cha know,

oh, I'll never let'cha go.

Don't have those feelings inside cuz,

If they're talked back they could turn your heart black,

how long will it take to for us to let this go?

Will you just wait, we'll let loose,

Will you know, My feelings are true,

If the world stops turning,

If the sun stops burning,

When the cold wind starts to blow,

I'm gonna let'cha know, oh,

I'll never let'cha go,

When you feel like breaking,

when your heart keeps waiting,

when the tears begin to fall,

I'm gonna let'cha know,

oh, I'll never let'cha go.

baby, I am standing here,

we're trying to get past the fears,

Hoping you won't let me go,

Ohhh, I wanna let'cha know!

If the world stops turning,

If the sun stops burning,

When the cold wind starts to blow,

I'm gonna let'cha know,

oh, I'll never let'cha go,

When you feel like breaking,

when your heart keeps waiting,

when the tears begin to fall,

I'm gonna let'cha know, oh,

I'll never let'cha go.

Do do, do do, I'll never let'cha go,

do do, do do, I'll never let'cha go,

do do, do do, I'll never let'cha go.

Oh, I wanna let'cha know!

A song for mum. ^^ Who is still at the hospital. COME HOME ALREADY! WE NEED SOLID FOOD HERE AT HOME! -.- P/s: Oh hell yeah, the song is for you honeybee. :D *you know I know, LMAO*

School has been a bore. .________. I got scolded by Mdm Aisah during malay class cause she thought I was busy chit chatting and not even completing my work, WHEN I HAVE CLEARLY COMPLETED THE FILING AND WAS WAITING FOR THE OTHER STACKS OF PAPERS TO GET TO ME. That annoying Syafiq kept disturbing me. I was already looking like a zombie during malay class and there he was irritating me. -.- Stupid partner and blehdy hell, all of us had to "donate" 20 cents to buy a hole puncher or what we call it PENEBUK LUBANG in malay. How lame can that ever be? Like, cant Mdm Aisah lend us hers? Ok, maybe she doesnt have one but couldnt she borrowed it for another teacher first? I mean, like HELLO, she didnt tell us to bring the darn PENEBUK LUBANG two days back. -.- I mean, I dont mind "donating" 20 cents to buy the hole puncher but sadly, today I was totally OUT OF CASH. Like, I only had a few cents in my wallet. -.- So, I was wondering at the end of the year, who will get that hole puncher? Common sense man. GOSH. Ms Julya Chan, my SS teacher, reminds me of Ms Wen my P5 and P6 science teacher. AND OH MEH GOOSE!! Shara and I saw a teacher in our school that at first glance HE LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE arwah MR ROSLAN and from the back, he looks like Mr Roslan, the way he walks, his bodylanguage BUT not the same fashion sense. -.- AND I DONT KNOW HIS NAME! -.-

Someone from NUH Rehab centre has just called home asking where's Mdm Yatimah (my mum, that is) and I was like, "*shock voice*ISNT SHE HOSPITALIZED?!" and the woman said my mum was discharge today. AND I WAS LIKE, "SERIOUS?! SHE IS NOT AT HOME! Why dont you try checking?" After the conversation, called dad who was in the mosque and I was like asking him tons of questions. LIKE TONS and all he said was, "mama is still at the hospital la! Maybe collecting her medications with abang and she is not even dischargd yet!" -.- I was totally unhappy, called mum who was laughing at me. OH BLEHDY HELL. Then heard one of my Aunty's voice. -.- Mum kept saying she hasnt been discharged yet, sooooo, I VIDEOCALLED HER! ^^ And, she ws still on the bed, with the hospital attire and trying to eat her medications and aunty was busy talking about God knows what. (I couldnt hear a thing!) -.- SO, I'm not sure if she is going home or not. OH I HOPE YES! I MISSED HER! AND I WONT LET YOU GO, MUM! :)

2010-01-12T18:44:00.002+08:00

I havent been updating much. I have decided to remove my tagboard, SOON. Mum has been admitted to the hospital and I blehdy hell miss her. ):

2010-01-09T17:08:00.013+08:00

My new capo! ^^

2010-01-07T17:08:00.002+08:00

I'm planning to make my blog private or remove my tagboard. Mainly cause no one ever floods my tagboard and I think not many is reading my blog, SO WHO THE FUCK CARES ABOUT MY BLOG. ^^ It's kinda good, though. ;D I'll try to make up my mind and make a decision. -.- Or maybe, I could make my blog temporarily "private". ^^ I have to go. I can hear dad yelling my name. Oolala. -.-

2010-01-05T16:04:00.005+08:00

A song for those who are madly in love. LMAO but seriously, an amazing song, by who else?! COLBIE CAILLAT!! ^^ I was at Youtube looking at videos. THEN, I FOUND THIS.

ADORABLE! ^^ I wish I was her. -.- Anyway, I promise, if she were to ~~give birth to an~~ have an album, I WOULD PURCHASE IT, that is if they even have her album here in Singapore. :) Go to Youtube and type, glorialeemusic or you can just click the name I typed. :D She's awesome and she reminds me of my cousin, Aiishah Yeow (thats not her name, that is).

I am so pissed off with school. It always happens, EVERY YEAR. The first week is always a FUCKTUP week. LIKE REALLY, FUCKTUP. Yesterday, I had band. OH HELL YEAH. I have an ulcer ON THE TIP OF MY TONGUE. IMAGINE HOW PAINFUL IT IS WHEN I HAVE TO KEEP TOUNGING. Bleah. Not only that but after I wasted my breath warming up for piccolo and tuning my piccolo, I didnt even use it for any songs. Played hubby for HSM and the Hannah Montanna song (Gay, I know) . I couldnt even tongue properly. I was like trying my blehdy best but end up screwing the Hannah Montanna song. -.- Right, first day was, FINE. Got to know Mdm Aishah is my form teacher. *starts running around and screaming my lungs out* Spent $5 on A4 exercise books and I'm now pokai. Like, really badly pokai. Soooo, today I thought it was gonna be like A-WEE-WEE-DAY, turned out, I'm blehdy wrong. *oops* Had to sit at the back of the class since I came late. Physics was AWESOME cause Mr Anwar is taking my class, again. ^^ AND HE REMEMBERS ME! When we had to intro ourself, it was my turn and he was like "HAH! I REMEMBER YOU! Siti, 2E2, now tell me your PSLE score." I was like, "219". "See! She got 219 for PSLE!" I was like "wth? Like that also must tell?"

After Phy had English, MY TEACHER IS MR PRABHU(and our english file is ORANGE)! MS TEO!! I NEED YOU!! COME BACK!! MS RACHEL TEO!! I WANT TO WRITE JOURNAL ENTRIES!! I WANT TO FEEL LIKE A P6 KIDDIE AGAIN!! So, ater English, had MA, Maths teacher didnt come. ): then recess, rushed to bookshop to purchase books. GUESS WHAT?! I ONLY FOUND OUT LAST NIGHT THAT I DIDNT PURCHASE THE WHOLE SET OF MALAY BOOKS. Bought the books, went to find a spot and told Faustine to keep an eye on my books and the next thing you know when I came back with Shara and my food, THE SPOT I TOLD FAUSTINE TO KEEP AN EYE ON WAS OCCUPIED BY THE MALAY KIDS. I WAS TOTALLY LIKE, "EH WTF! Chi bai! Aku dapat tempat ni dulu sial!" in my heart, that is. I dont wish to get bashed up by them. Found a spot right next to Travis and that perempuan jeling tu jeling jeling pat aku, aku buat bodoh sudah. Kau ambik tempat aku lah sundal! After recess, went back to class room and had malay. Mdm Aishah is my malay teacher. She re arranged our seatings and wrote some stuffs that we should bring on every lesson and that was when I found out the paper I had witten down things that I have to buy was missing. MISSING. I turned and asked Sabrina if she had seen the paper, and *suspen music* Mdm Aishah totally "yelled" at me. "Awak mahu tanya beliau apa?" So I answered la, "Kertas nota saya hilang." she made me repeat my sentence twice. -.- And she told Zikry to sit infront of the teacher's table so that she can take good care of him since she saw potential of him being an A1 student. Wth?

2010-01-03T20:59:00.001+08:00

Stupid. I HATE COOKING. FUCKK.... Stupid rice cooker!

2010-01-03T20:18:00.002+08:00

BOOYA!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! ..............

Shit, I'm two days late, darn it. Anyway, SCHOOL IS TOMORROW!! DARN IT!! Time flies. I remember I was still sitting on East Coast Beach last year and witnessed the MARVELLOUS "fireworks" by ships. ;) This year, we went to Labrador (I really am not sure how you spell it) Park. Waited for hours. Played guitar AND ada "mamat" floating cap nak sindir aku. I was like "wtf?" They were singing Majulah Singapura and totally SPOILING IT. I didnt even know what the hell were they singing. O.O I had to ask mum, "Ape diaorang nyanyi ni?" -.-

I have to update some other time. That is, if I even have the time to relax. BAND PRACTICE STARTS TOMORROW!!! MUST CHIONG AH!!

2009-12-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

I am inspired by her. Have fun in life. Everyone has fears and troubles.

2009-12-30T15:42:00.006+08:00

I'm just so tired of these troubles that I try to hide.
Makes me wanna wash away my whole world inside.
I think it's time that I make changes in the things I do.
This weight on my chest I am ready to loose.
And all this time I've been getting in my own way.
I have to tell myself only I can be the one to make a change.

Don't hold me down.
Oh, I was getting so far.
Don't hold me down.
Cause I don't wanna fall apart.
Don't hold me down.
You see me waking up and feel it now.
I'm breaking down and nothing's gonna stop me now.
No, no.

I have been rocking back and forth across the line.
Hanging for a moment on the wrong side.
Now I'm standing up, I think I'll be here for a while.
Hope I rememeber how to keep on this steady smile.
All that time I was getting in my own way.
I had to tell myself only I could be the one to make a change.

Don't hold me down.
Oh, I was getting so far.
Don't hold me down.
Cause I don't wanna fall apart.
Don't hold me down.
You see me waking up and feel it now.
I'm breaking down and nothing's gonna stop me now.

I know I'm gonna fight it.
I'm tired of being blinded. So....

I won't hold me down.
Oh, I wanna go so far.
I won't hold me down.
I don't wanna fall apart.
Don't hold me down.
You see you're waking up and feel it now.
I'm breaking down and nothing's gonna stop me now.
No, no.
Nothing's gonna stop me now.
No, no, no. No, no. No, no.

This will be the song for 2010. ^^ I AM PREPARED (well, I think I am) FOR 2010.

Been feeling rather down for the past few days. I screwed up the food mum cooked yesterday. I was heating it up today. I guess the flame was friggin big that a few minutes later, when I came in to check, the gravy has dried. I panicked (duh?). Remember the time I burnt a whole pot of gravy? Rings a bell? Right, so I checked if the sotong is burnt or something. I thank my God that the sotong was not harmed. The gravy has magically dissapeared though. Ok, skip to the next point. Came home from school with Abang then he yelled at me why is there no gravy in the pot. I explained, he called dad. He then passed the phone to me and the next thing you know, dad was yelling at me. There I was in my room, trying to hold back my tears from trickling down my cheek. He said (in Malay, that is), "A simple thing and you cant do it?! You're just re-heating the gravy! You know how tired your mum was last night?! But she still cooked for you all!" I couldnt say anything. I was at fault. No one else but me. I really felt dumb at that moment. I felt like he was calling me stupid because I cant do something simple. I didnt say anything to defned myself. I know it was useless. Every choice I make, I end up in misery. Every single thing I do, there's always something wrong with it. I dont know why. I felt small, useless, hopeless, stupid, miserable. If only I didnt re heat the gravy, I wouldnt be in this mess. But I would still be yelled at. Why? Cause I didnt re heat the gravy. I dont know what's with me. Everything seems so wrong. All the choices I've made are wrong. Now, I'm not even sure if I've made the right subject combination or have I made the right decision of falling in love? I cant take anymore pressure. Maybe its all my fault. I know, everything happens for a reason. But is this how my life is suppose to be? Miserable, unhappy, fake smiles, fake laughter, fake love? Everything seems so fake. I've tried to breakthrough but I aint moving anywhere. I'm still stuck here alone. Cause nobody seems to understands me. What I really want and what I really need. I'm not saying I have bad friends and bad family members but maybe alittle understanding could help. I'm tired of always being there for myself and others when others dont even seem to care of my thoughts, my feelings, my opinions, my thirst for attention. I'm not an attention seeker. I dont expect people to pop up in front of my door and say, "You can cry on my shoulder." I dont need that. I dont need people to push me around and tell me what to do. I may be a stubborn headed kid but a trusting hand will be enough to make me ease.

2009-12-29T13:10:00.003+08:00

Dad is home. I "composed" a song last night. I was shutting the windows when *wham* ~~the window shuts itself and my poor nose got stuck~~ an idea popped in my head. I have to say the first line is exactly like Taylor Swift's Untouchable (go check it out). Anyway, I kinda got inspired by Taylor Swift's and Colbie Caillat's songs. Bleahh. I still think the sing needs a lot of improvement. O.O

I havent been updating much BECAUSE, on Christmas Eve, dad brought the whole family to Mad Jacks at Bedok. AWESOMENESS. Food there is, HEAVENLY. Though it comes with a really nice price. I ordered the Mad Jacks special, called Rib eyed *I forgot*. Ordered Cheese Fries, which was way better than heaven, LOL. The fries was really soft, the cheese melts in your mouth AND, they come in a frigging large (maybe extra large) plate. Fries lovers, you should try it out. :D Then, for desert I had the Blackforest cake which had a scoop of Vanilla ice cream on top of it. Mom had the meringue thing, WHICH IS REALLYCHEWY BUT WAS REALLY OISHI!! The meringue had whipped cream and diced fruits like kiwi, mango, strawberry etc, on top of it. Oh, for drinks I had root beer float. :D *heavenly* You should go there, just prepare a stash of cash. ^^V

On Christmas day. I didnt go anywhere. It rained. On Saturday, went to Wak Ju's house. Had some karaoke sessions, wii-ing sessions, makan-ing sessions. LMAO. Yeah yeah. On Sunday, went to Expo. Saw Fiza O watched the competition, Kita Pun Ada Talent. Had dinner at Bedok Corner. Went home. Reached home just on time for the results. Watched Swing Girls. ^^

2009-12-28T14:49:00.001+08:00

I AM VERY PISSED OFF WITH POPULAR. Textbooks that I've pre-ordered online two weeks back is still not here. When I called, "Hold on ah. I pass the phone to my coleague." And she put on hold for more than 10 minutes and till now, no response. I hung up. Blehdy pissed off.

Really wtf la.

2009-12-24T16:36:00.003+08:00

Screw Mixpod.com I was like so happy, overjoyed, enthusiastic, on cloud 9 cause my blog is finally gonna have some songs. :D Then *plays suspens music on piano* "Fuck! Eh walao! Why wouldnt it play?! ABANG! WHY WOULDNT IT PLAY?!" So, dear readers, I am really sorry if you dont like my music, who cares anyway? I mean, you're in my blog. Everywhere you see is just ~~ME!~~ my stuffs. My type of music. (Everything is by Colbie Caillat in the music thing in my blog, I am really sorry if you hate her cause maybe you're blind enough to not see real talent.) I wanted to actually put in her whole Breakthrough Deluxe Edition but decided not to. (I dont wish to have her hunting down me with a knife in her hand. I mean, I'm not sure if its legal to have a whole album in your blog.) Rightttt, Sulaiman told me Azmi texted him asking how to stop loving someone and how to find out if he still has feelings for that person. I SWEAR, THE FIRST TIME I READ THAT MESSAGE, I KNEW THAT SHE WAS ME.

What's the problem sia? Dude (or maybe dudette) dont you understand English and Malay? I dont like nor love you. AKU TAK SUKA APA TAH LAGI MENCINTAI MU. (The Malay one is rather different compared to the English one)

Stop it. I'm not falling for you.

2009-12-23T16:57:00.001+08:00

boredom

2009-12-23T15:54:00.002+08:00

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG!!!! I mean I love this song. It's really awesome. I've tried playing it on my guitar. I'm not gonna update much. I'm otp with my ~~part time boyfriend~~ Amirul Hariz. :D He called me just to play Stand By Me by Ben E. King.
I have to go. :D

2009-12-22T17:48:00.003+08:00

You And I Both

Jason Mraz MySpace Music Videos

"Lucky" Official Video With Colbie Caillat

Jason Mraz MySpace Music Videos

I love both of the videos. :D I'm hoping I wont fall in love with Jason Mraz or I would end up buying his albums. O.O now, I dont want that to happen again. BUT I ♥ JASON MRAZ! And Colbie Caillat. AND Taylor Swift. AND Jason Reeves. ^^V I ♥ everyone.

I love the video of lucky thought the ending is kinda confusing but it's awesome! ^^ Cause I love them both. I mean, you cant blame me. It's the song of me and honey. :D Honeybee♥

But, I'm not sure why everytime I listen to Lucky, the only thing I can think of is Syabil. Monsieur Syabil. Uh ya, Syabil is the mysterious Monsieur in my blog. Oh, and everytime I watch any Japan or French movie, it reminds me of Syabil. Goodness. Snap out of it. Ok, maybe because I fell for him (old days story) and he's my bestfriend and Lucky is about falling in love with your bestfriend who is across the ocean, not that we are separated from an ocean or something but we live freaking far from each other. O.O I'll update more tomorrow.

Addicted to: Stay with Me, Colbie Caillat. Lucky, Jason Mraz with Colbie Caillat (either ways). Here Comes the Sun, The Beatles and Colbie Caillat (Colbie did a cover of it). Rainbow, Colbie Caillat. :D

2009-12-22T15:43:00.004+08:00

I know you love me, but gosh I hate you. Why you so obsessed with me? I really wanna know. A pillow isnt the right answer neither is it the key to my heart. So shut up and let me go. :D

I ♥ today! ^^ Wait, I love everyday! ^^V Though I'm having stomach cramps, the wind here is really strong and my hair is poking my eyeballs even when I'm using my specs. *Shouts thank you to the wind* I was cleaning my room last night and found TONS AND TONS AND MORE TONS of worksheets / forms that was suppose to be handed in to the teacher. o.o No Maths stuffs, no English stuffs but alot from Geo, Hist and Phy. O.O

AND GUESS WHAT?! I FOUND THE 8 PAGE HORNY CONVERSATION BETWEEN ME, SABERRYNA, FAZURAH AND DESMOND. (I swear, Desmond was the most horny-est among us all. Kinda give me the creeps.)

Fazurah(F): The Male Qi Gai juz walk past our class rite? He walk lyk Qi Gai lor..
Desmond(D): Really meh? I felt that he 'babok' leh
Siti(M): True *draws picture of gay and labels them male qi gai, some apek which is gay*
F: male prostitue sia.... cool, shld give TKH his namecard
M: *draws arrow and underline male prostitute* its called a gigolo. LOL!
F: LOL! muz report to Aisyah kecik...
M: they stead how long ah?
F: That time th male qi gai say 4 mths liao.. entah betul entah tak..
M: wtf
D: What the fuck? They underage la, bodoh
S: They're not yet legal yknow.
M: underage for?
D: For the F,U,C,K lah!!
M: OH! Fornication Under Consant of King!
D: Wrong! Is Fucking Under a Circle of the Kitchen loh!
S: ROFL. I feel like punching Male Qi Gai and kick his balls. HAHAHA. effing.
M: Haha! You should!
D: Make sure he no "fucker" day or else his wife no happiness make one and for all.
F: Wth -.- seriously, lets gang up & kick his balls..
S: He suck effingly. Harper's Island. Cut him 1 by 1. HAHAHA!
M: More like Cut his balls chunk by chunk!
D: So bad................... should put in mixer made smoothie.
F: Den give the female qi gai drink! haha.......
S: uhh, goood. Cannot goncang already lah. Too bad.
M: Sad ;ah cannot goncang or fuck or even have Fathers' Day! He should have "no balls day"
D: no balls? Should pump air into the balls to play basketball infront of him lah... don't know how to torture ppl sia!
F: haha.. lol.. cnt fuck.. no happiness liao.. later he commit suicide.. lol.
D: who say? connect a machine dildo "there" lah.
S: too bad ah Qi Gai. Since he's a Qi Gai, he'll come begging for balls. HAHAHA.
M: "Balls for spare please" beged the male Qi Gai. "I need balls to fuck my female Qi Gai." he begged, again. LOL!
D: By his side, the female qi gai asking for fund to go find gigolo
F: Both qi gai also despo to fuck lar..
S: Haiyo, the female Qi Gai had too many fuckers that her vagina is equivalent to the size of a ruber band. HAHAHA.
M: More like a stretched rubber band!
D: More like a whole diameter of a normal water melon, too bad lah, the male qi gai's too small, she cannot high lah.
F: maybe the male qi gai got fuck before also... U nvr know! ^^

Ok, that's not all. I cant type everything out. If you want to read, just tell me. I'll try to pass it to you. FAZURAH INGATKAN AKU BAGI KAU PAPER NI! ^^

2009-12-21T15:18:00.019+08:00

2009-12-20T15:55:00.002+08:00

I am back!!!!! ^^

I know you missed me cause I missed you, LMAO. Whatever la eh. Camp was awesome, I think. First day, did nothing much. SNAPPED ALOT OF PHOTOS WHICH I LOVE!! Oh, and I have tons of videos taken on the first day. I have a lebam on my right arm and a lebam on my left hand. O.O Ok, wont be updating much. I have lost my voice, I'm kinda sick, I'm having stomach cramp. O.O I'm gonna be uploading videos and photos. Photos maybe next time. Cause I have to edit it. The qualoty is not edited, I'll just add my name at the bottom of every photo so no life kiddies wont steal it, muahahaha.

WARNING! Videos are really horrible!! Its really really loud. Especially when you see there's instruments. :D

VIDEOS!!!

(Nasuha's "magic")

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky, Mmmm
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'll be here anyway
But you're untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're closer, feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, In the middle of the nigh
tWe could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
Oh, oh I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh
Untouchable burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dreamIt's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh oh
Oh, Oh, In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come onS
ay that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven

2009-12-16T16:59:00.004+08:00

WARNING, I WILL NOT BE UPDATING MY BLOG TILL MONDAY. Or maybe Sunday? Ok, I have no idea. No, this is not a joke, LMAO.

Boohoo. I'm gonna be homesick for the next few days. ): Gonna be going for primary school band camp. ): I'll miss my home, my guitar, my bee (no, not an insect), my family, my room, my toilet, my toothbrush, my tv, my BED!, my shampoo, my soap, my bantal busuk! BOOHOOO!!! I have separation anxiety you see. My imagination runs wild, ALWAYS. I'm still kinda sick. I mean, when I wake up, really dry throat (I need water by my side always), I have blocked nose at night. Oh mon dieu. .__. I'm not sure if I should bring some paracetamol or something. Ok, Siti, shut up. Dont panic. I HAVE TO PANIC! Argh! I still have not packed everything. My bag looks like there's a rock in it. .____________. I'm gonna miss everything at home. ): BUT NO WORRIES PEEPOLE (classic favourite), YOU CAN STILL TEXT OR CALL ME!! ^^ Text, ANYTIME. Call, after 11 pm. I have to cradle the kiddies to sleep. o.o I'm gonna look like a panda the next day. And when I come home, I would most probably look like a zombie. Yikes. I ♥ my honey! ^^ Cause, you're my honey and I'm your bee. Together we are, HONEYBEE!!! ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz *continues buzzing sound* I have to go now. Belum solat asar la seyy. .__. Sayonara PEEPOLE! ^^

P/s: YOU BETTER MISS ME, cause I'll miss you! ^^

P/ss: I ♥ honey

P/sss: YOU CAN CALL ME AFTER 11 PM (or when I tell you, you can call) YOU CAN TEXT ME, ANYTIME! ^^

2009-12-15T15:25:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU BABY..... Wtf? Wrong channel. -.- Right, this song is SOOO STUCK IN MY HEAD. Oh hell yeah!

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wannahold you so much.
At long last love hasarrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take myeyes off you.
Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel.
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say: Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I loveyou baby.
Trust in me when I say: Oh prettybaby, don't bring me down I pray.
Oh prettybaby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....
I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say: Oh prettybaby, don't bring me down I pray.
Oh prettybaby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....

2009-12-14T14:41:00.007+08:00

Yuhoo darling. Eeekss. I'm not gonna update much. But, let me tell you something, yesterday which is a Sunday here in SIngapore was an awesome day. Let's just say its the happiest day for two kiddies. (I'll let your imagination run wild. :D No, I'm not revealing a thing. ) A not so unpainful day for me. I came home on the verge of tears thanks to blisters. ): Yeah. I have a blister on the side of my feet. Imagine that its bleeding and you're like "How come I can feel something dripping down my feet and how come the side of my feet hurts?" and when you take off your shoes, to your horror you see A HUGE BLISTER at THE SIDE OF YOUR FEET! So yeah, that's what that happened to me yesterday. -.-

2009-12-11T16:16:00.000+08:00

I'm now having a headache. My throat is like on fire. I'm like on fire. Really hot though the weather is kinda ok. I'm kinda starving. Saberryna is leaving for Barcelona tonight at midnight. I'LL MISS YOU BABE! We're weird partners. Teacher tell us to do something else, we are like exploring stuffs on our own. (especially science ^^) We're the noisy group of people who shuts up only when the teacher is mad or if it's maths lesson. LOL. Ok ok. Meenatchi, dont forget to get me the cap I pesan ok! Or at least get me something cute. :D Have a safe flight my dear partner! ^^

2009-12-11T11:45:00.002+08:00

I have not bathe yet. I'm sick. Been sneezing all day. My throat is really ouch. I'll blog later. Or maybe not. But anyhow, I'm not going for band in this condition. ._. Didnt go for band yesterday too. I was like too sick to go. -.-

2009-12-10T22:54:00.001+08:00

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left'

Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]

That I love youI have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask

Last chance for one last dance

Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it allI'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

'Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know

I wanted

I wanted you to stay

Cause I neededI need to hear you say

That I love youI have loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

So keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Awesome song. :D

Please tell him. (:

2009-12-10T14:43:00.001+08:00

I'm eating Maggi, STRAIGHT FROM THE PERIUK. Kekek. Seriously, I am eating Maggi from the periuk. But its a really cute periuk, so dont think I'm some no manners kid. Cooked all by myself. NO, I DIDNT BURN A THING. Awesome right?! Haha! Kembang sendiri. Anyhow, I'm sweating. Freaking sore throat. (I'm starting to have the pains and stuff at my throat.) Panicked when I took my temperature and found out my temperature was 37.3 . Is that normal? I forgot basic science. o.o Ok, off to eat now. :D

2009-12-09T14:37:00.002+08:00

"Here comes the sun.."

Oh fuck. Wrong song.

"Rain, rain go away come again another day!"

Oh hell yeahhh. Woke up at 11+ am today. Wait. I actually woke up at 8 am then went back to sleep then every 1 hour I wake up. o.o I was frigging alone at home. :X Mum and Dad went to meet Wak Jamil at Pusara Aman, I think, Nyaii's kubur is gonna be transfered. (kirakan pindah rumah ah ni. LMAO.) Mum told me Nyaii still had her teeth and long hair and her right eyeball was still in contact. Kinda creepy but yeah thats how she said it was. Nothing to blog then.. OH and I met a new friend.

2009-12-08T18:17:00.003+08:00

Gosh, what's with that kid sia? All I did was share a video on Facebook about this guy doing a parody of Bad Romance by Lady Gaga. WHICH in my opinion WAS BLEHDY FUNNEH! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A98QLymh_4k (The link). Ok, so I shared the video on Facebook and this kid came and said "whats so funny???i almost felt asleep watching this" and my reply was "Well, no one said you should laugh?" Well, it was kinda like a fact. I meant my reply. -.- Seriously. I didnt say that people SHOULD (in other words, MUST) laugh at this video. -.- Goodness. I just shared it cause I found it funny. Even Isa, a Lady Gaga fan liked the video. And Travis even said, "This is obviously THE BEST PARODY EVER." . It's just that well maybe people have deifferent views and opinions.

Tired of life. Urgh. He said, we shouldnt be together. Councillor stuffs. LMAO. Ok Siti, stop it. Remain calm at all times. At most ~~just jump down a building~~ you still have him as your bestfriend. :D

2009-12-07T12:47:00.002+08:00

"Love is something that you have to find in yourself and in every person around you and its something that takes time to get to know." - Colbie Caillat. :D

I BURNT MY LAUK!!!! FISHH!! I mean, LAMBS!!!! Yes, I had ignored my lauk. I was IN THE TOIET! Zzzz. Left the lauk, then went to room, then remembered that I havent switch off the lauk nya api! Freaked out and ran to kitchen and saw SMOKE from the periuk. AND ITS A LARGE PERIUK SOMEMORE! IT WAS HANGUS, DRY AND STICKY. I AM SOOOO DEAD!! Shit.

2009-12-06T20:13:00.003+08:00

NO!!! WHAT A WAY TO END MY WEEK! Flu, sore eyes, LONG LECTURES FROM EVERYONE, lack of sleep AND PROBLEMS KNOCKING AFTER ONE LEFT. -.- Ok, now I'm starting to find *insert name* 's younger sister rather irritating. *take a knife and stab me already!!* I think I'm having a fever. AND I STILL HAVE TO PAY BACK MY FAST TOMORROW!! NO!!! There I was planning my food timetable and mum comes knocking saying I have to bayar balik puasa. -.- I have no flute to use. ): I'm soooooo used to hubby that I'm uncomfortable using other flutes. ): Bad flautist. Lol. I havent been playing hubby for nearly 2 months I think? Yeahh. I miss hubby. ): I keep practicing piccolo (which I think is kinda useless, cause piccolo is really really really irritating). Ok, nothing more to post. Righhttttt. HANIS!! GET ME THE CAP!! ^^ I WOULD SO ♥ YOU (if you get it, that is)!!

2009-12-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

I dont mind being friends. Seriously. But you always take advantage of me. Like hello, I aint a kid. Ok, I'm only 14. BUT FUCK YOU, I HAVE BRAINS. Well, everyone has one dont they? Rightt.. So, you want me to treat you like a bestfriend? Like an adik? Haha. Sorry. Friends is good enough. What makes you think gaining trust is easy? Think about it. You were cheated and backstabbed and embarrased by this kid that you trust. Is it gonna be easy for this kid to gain your trust back? Think about it. Use your brains. Allah s.w.t gave yu brains to think. Not to fool around with it. Seriously. Why are you so stubborn huh? I told you, the limits is just friends. Nothing more. See, I'm addicted to HIM. Oh yes, HIM. No, not Syabil, not Adib, not Azmi, not Farhan. But HIM. The best guy I've ever known. Who you think is your "friend". Well i dont know if you guys are friends but, who cares? He is WAY BETTER than you. Try comparing your standard with his. Bezanya sungguh ketara. I dont know if you would understand my post. (No, i'm not trying to insult you.)

2009-12-04T17:03:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry. I cant except you. Ever heard of the song You Got Me by Colbie Caillat? Yeah. It's not about us. It's about me and him. Him, who I am obssessed with. Him, who have always been there for me. Him, who is the shoulder I cry on. Him, who goes crazy when I tell him about food. :X Him, who I know so well. Him, who knows me like the back of his hand. Him, who I ♥ is not you, Azmi. Gosh, why you so obsessed with me? *Starts singing Obsessed by Mariah Carey* LMAO. but seriously, the part before Mariah Carrey is true. It's a fact. Face it. I dont know why am i so special to you but, like you said in your blog, you dont want to betray your friend who has fallen for me, AND I have fallen for him TOO. Sadly, you're not in the picture. So, I mean we can just be friends or you want to be the desperate one chasing me, I'm fine. Just dont bug me. And you have to tahan my vulgur. If my friends can do it, why cant you?

2009-12-04T11:57:00.005+08:00

Fucking unglam picture of me. -.- Gosh.

My boyfriend, LOL. Kidding. :D We're both Ris Low fans!

GOOD MORNING PEOPLE.

Rightt... I'm awake. Up and early. Havent had breakfast. Laundry is done. SHIT MADRASAH HOMEWORK. Oh, left two chapters only. Who cares. Yesterday, I rot at home. :D The truth, seriously. The whole day I was blasting Taylor Swift's Fearless Platinum and watching the DVD stuffs in that album. Then got bored, went online. Chatted with Faqih and Shara. Start doodling on Msn (Faqih's was awesome!! Mine was uglay) Yeah yeah.. It's kinda sunny here. *Here comes the sun doo doo doo* My hair is getting brown-ier. Lol. Yeahh. Let's talk about last night. Blehdy hell HE was irritating. Can you believe it? He said "Dah paisey buat hal paisey aja ah. :p" Childish. All because, his *God knows who* wants to buy him Rihanna's latest album. And his FAILED, I repeat, FAILED attempt to make me jealous. -.- Whatever for? Seriously. I'm not a huge fan of Rihanna. And there that gay was saying "Dah paisey dah paisey." Wtv.. Like why do I need to paisey? His ULTIMATE LAME reason was, "Dah kalah! " -.- Fucking childish. I told you, go sit with your mother dont want. End up kena maki by me, you start crying and be an emo and complain to weirdos. -.- And then what happens? Everyone blames me. Mother fucker. Whatever la eh. Then HE said "obey? Depan mak bapak aje alim! Blakang mak bapak macam bntng! Maki rabak rabak. ......" ok the message was somehow like that. Couldnt be bothered to save it. -.- My reply was easy. ^^ "If I'm a binatang, you're the human that has fallen for me" And TADAH, he tries to cover up his mistake with a LAME excuse. "mistake ... bntng is BINTANG not BINATANG." And you know when he sent it? After I have replied. -.- Lame la. Budak budak macam kau, sepatutnya duduk pat rumah. Tolong mak masak. Dapat jugak pahala. Dari kau tambah dosa aku. Buat aku maki kau. You're nothing in my life. Not even a piece of shit. If you wanna be my friend, you have to tahan my vulgur. If you cant, too bad.

2009-12-03T14:48:00.009+08:00

GUESS WHAT?! MOM BOUGHT ME TAYLOR SWIFT'S PLATINUM EDITION YESTERDAY!! *jumps for joy and starts screaming* ^^

(Pardon for the really low quality)

2009-12-02T20:00:00.000+08:00

Changed blogskin! ^^

2009-12-02T18:38:00.006+08:00

I am DYING to be her.

I AM DYING FOR COLBIE CAILLAT TO COME TO SINGAPORE. OH PLEASE COLBIE, COME TO SINGAPORE. GOSH. I WOULD SERIOUSLY GO TO YOUR CONCERT!! ^^ Come on, her tickets wouldnt cost like $1000+ right? COME TO SINGAPORE ON MY BIRTHDAY!! ^^ Next year, 5/4/2010 :D

I know she came here last year in March and I missed it. Hey, I didnt know a thing about her at the point of time but now, she's my idol. ^^ She's awesome, I mean her voice. She makes everyone, well I think, feels that its okay to be you. Everyone is different. :D Blehdy hell.

Oh and the other day, I dreamt that she came to Singapore! ^^ And I met her, BACKSTAGE cause I GOT A BACKSTAGE PASS!! ^^ Blehdy awesomeness. Well I dreamt she autographed both the albums that I have. ^^ AND SHE AUTOGRAPHED MY GUITAR. Well since I got the backstage pass, she gave me a Coco necklace and the Colbie Caillat hoodie I have ALWAYS WANTED. Put that in your head. SHE GAVE ME. And I checked on her web, the things costs $55 in total excluding the shipping and yada yada yada. Oh my god. AND I GOT TONS OF PHOTOS AND VIDEOS OF HER, in my dream that is. Urgh. Then mum woke me up. I was like enjoying myself! Urgh.

2009-12-02T16:58:00.004+08:00

Frenglish. :D

ces petits riens, ces petites choses,

qui, me viennent de toi, me laissent sans voix

Et mon coeur, il ce débat tout seul, pour ne

pas faire que sa, battre pour toi

Je tourne en rond dans mon salon

Je me fais des scènes, autour de moi même,

oh oui dis moi et je te rattrape

avant que tu m'échappe ...

Dis moi, dis moi les mots qui font du bien

Dis toi dis toi, que j'aime ces petits riens

Dis moi dis moi, les mots qui font planer

Dis toi dis toi que je ne serai jamais mieux sans toi...

Ne m'abandonne pas, je ne serai jamais mieux sans toi...

ne pleure pas

And every time, you notice me by

holdin me closely, and sayin sweet things

i don't believe, that it could beyou speekin your mind and, sayin the real thing

my feet have broke free, and i am leavin

i'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely but

i wont regret it, and i won't think this

was just a waste of time

Dis moi, dis moi les mots qui font du bien

Dis toi dis toi, que j'aime ces petits riens

Dis moi dis moi, les mots qui font planer

Dis toi dis toi que je ne serai jamais mieux sans toi...

Ne m'abandonne pas, je ne serai jamais mieux sans toi... ne pleure pas

Je ne peux plus dormir seule

Je ne peux plus dormir seuleces petits riens, ces petites choses,

qui, me viennent de toi, me laissent sans voix

Et mon coeur, il ce débat tout seul, pour ne pas faire que sa, battre pour toi

Je tourne en rond dans mon salon

Je me fais des scènes, autour de moi même, oh oui dis moi et je te rattrape avant que tu

m'échappe ...

Don't just leave me hanging on

Dis moi, dis moi les mots qui font du bien

Dis toi dis toi, que j'aime ces petits riens

Dis moi dis moi, les mots qui font planer

Dis toi dis toi que je ne serai jamais mieux sans toi... [Don't just leave me hanging on]

Ne m'abandonne pas, je ne serai jamais mieux sans toi... ne pleure pas

Je ne peux plus dormir seule...

Je ne peux plus dormir seule

I have nothing to blog about. :/

2009-12-01T16:15:00.004+08:00

I know, its been ages since I last posted. -.-

Shit. No wonder they kept telling me I'm in the commitees (Is that how you spell it?). I'm now the Flute assistant sectional leader. Gosh. My section is like really small although there are like TONS of names in the flute attendance list, but usually its like only 5 or so that will come. If attendance is really bad, it will be 3 flautist. GOSH. I bet Jerome would push everything to me. But oh nevermind. -.- I cant complain much.

Sent my phone for servicing today. ): I miss Girlfriend already. (Yes, I call my phone Girlfriend. Imagine calling a pink phone Boyfriend. It sounds odd.) Yeahh anyway dad picked me up at Redhill MRT then drove to his office which was opposite LG service centre. Went to LG then went to er.. I forgot the building name but it was at Maxwell road if I'm not wrong. Then ate at er.. I have no idea where dad brought me to. -.- BUT THE MEE REBUS WAS SYIOK. Then he went back to his office and bought me a "Learn to play the GUITAR" book. It was a suprise. I was thinking he was getting me an iPod touch or something. Lmao. Dad sent me to Redhill MRT and I went home. :)

So now I'm using my old phone. Nokia *God knows what*. Since Abang used my Nokia 6300. Tsk. P/s: My number has not changed. :D

I know people are gonna make fun of me but OH MEH GOOSE, I think there's this kid that kinda stalks me on Facebook. He gives me the creeps. LMAO. Yeah, AND, I found three messages from Syabil in my old phone. :D It was when he asked if I could be his sister cause he thinks friends doesnt describes us best. Awww. Those days... *starts flashing back*

2009-11-27T15:53:00.003+08:00

I can't help thinking how dead I would be this holiday. :X Right.. I needa look on the bright side of life. That is if there's some light shining on me. Yesterday went back to primary school to plan for the band camp. Went bonkas when there was an insect around us. HAHA!! After meeting went downstairs to the hall to check out the PSLE results. :D Saw the teachers. OH AND MS WEN STILL RECOGNIZE ME! ^^ *jump for joy* She took ages la to actually recognize me. Haha. Izzati was with me. Followed her to her sister's class, 6B. Saw Ms Norliah from the back. And I was like "Eh Cikgu Norliah!" to Izzati and she thought I was pointing to the wrong person. -.- Awesomeness happened when we totally blend it with the parents. :D Waited outside 6B then Sulaiman came along to said hi. -.- Izzyan came out and said she got 246. (Nice number ^^) Saw Cikgu Norlela, salam her and talked a little bit. Wait, she kinda ignored me after I asked "Cikgu, Cikgu Norliah dah pakai tudung eh?" And her reply was "Ya. Sudah setahun." -.- Lembab sak aku dapat info. I wanna meet Cikgu Norliah again!! Didnt salam or tegur her yesterday. :/ Went to Pioneer Mall after that. Bought food for myself. Rushed home to send my food. Went out with Izzati. OH AND WE BOUGHT SUPER BIG SLURP AND MILK COFFEE AT 7-11. We went BONKAS after drinking it, literally. She bought Milk Coffee and I mixed 100 plus, Ice Lemon Tea, F&N Grape and Orange, Coke and others that was there la. Haha!! Drank that and we were laughing and we were like drunk people. LOL. The Super Big Gulp tasted like Green Tea at first. :X Then Izzati made me drink the Milk Coffee then drink the big gulp. LOL. Ecverything came out when I tried it. Argh. It tasted like some medicine. :X Went to Jurong Point to get Abang's porridge. -.- We went to Popular first. :D Wanted to check how much does the Zee Avi's album cost then... SAW TAYLOR SWIFT'S FEARLESS PLATINUM EDITION!! And it's only $20.95 round up $21!! ^^ AWESOMENESS!! Called Shara on the spot. LOL. Then bought the porridge. Went to library. Went home. :D I'm getting more chubby. :/

2009-11-24T16:16:00.002+08:00

Blehdy funneh. LAUGHED MY ARSE OFF AT THE Boomz de YA da part. LOL!!

Haha!! Blehdy FUNNEH. HAHA!! RAD, YALLOW AND NABY BLUE. Cause like that ah, the colour will BOOMZ ah. It shouts, HELLO ITS ME AH!

This reminds me of 2E2,"I WANNA WANNA BE A VASANTHAM STAR!!" We were'nt being racist but we were like singing the song like the whole week or so? And even wrote "I wanna wanna be a Vasantham star!" Had TONS of fun at that time. LOL.

Blehdy awesome video. I ♥ WORLD!

2009-11-23T15:15:00.004+08:00

Happy 14th birthday Syabil Sarafian!!! ^^ I'm sorry I didnt get your permission to grab this photo. :X Thousand apologies. D:

I know I wished you last night/morning. It was 12.03 am. Haha. Anyway, yeah I'm glad you get to continue you Violin class and skip grade 4. LOL. Oh and I'm not sure if you remember this, a note from Sabrina. :D

2009-11-23T15:02:00.002+08:00

Blehdy hell-o. LOL. You have to read these 2 articles http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=2737 and http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=2191 Freaked the hell out of me, no kidding. No wonder many are addicted to Bad Romance by Lady Gaga. And in the second link, they wrote that when Taylor Swift was dissed by Kanye was a well act. -.- Wtfuck? I mean like ok it looks kinda real to me but I mean hello. Oh nevermind. After Lady Gaga's performance at the VMA, she wore red head to toe, literally. LOL. But Lady Gaga is kinda freaking me out uh. :X I'm really sorry Lady Gaga's fans. I really am. But what I posted could be real?

2009-11-22T22:32:00.003+08:00

I was on the phone with Sulaiman when I saw this damn cool video! BLEHDY AWESOME! The flute played quite a few error? Ok, I'm not sure if the played it or what but oh who cares? You have to enjoy it sey. The girl somehow reminds me of Mei Hwa. LOL!! Sorry. :X The guy is kinda hot. LOL.

I would pay him to play me a lullaby everynight. Seriously. LOL.

Lucky I'm in love with my bestfriend (I'm not sure who?) I miss playing hubby. :(

A huge TSK to Mr Philip Han. I mean, he totally banned me from playing the flute. And there I was trying my best not to ~~hit him with the piccolo, stand, guitar and flute OH AND HIS CONDUCTOR STAND~~ cry. -.- Like who wouldnt right? You spent God knows how many years playing the flute only now you're transfered to piccolo. -.- Hopeless instrument. I clearly was on the verge of giving up playing that stupid thing when Michelle's words popped into my mind. Can I not play the piccolo anymore? :(

2009-11-22T18:44:00.006+08:00

I'll make this post darn short. HE READ MY MIND. Oh meh goose. I dont know what made him tell me what's his new blog but oh well, HELLO SYABIL SARAFIAN! Nice to

meet you, again. :D I don't wanna go to jemputan anymore. I have no idea why but

the wedding I went to just now was one word, horrible. God knows how dry the rice

was. The wind was blehdy strong. Ok, stop it. Rightt.. Mum said I should try to make
my brain start working and not keep it dead during the holidays. Clearly she expects

me to start brainstorming everyday. Tsk. Right.. Yesterday went out with family. :D Went to Geylang (among all places) just to eat the Nasi Ambeng (I swear I didnt

know what on earth is nasi ambeng until I saw mum and abang eating it) . Anyway it

was my first time at the near market/food court. -.- I had mee rebus. I was craving

for it anyway, it didnt taste that nice. :X Wrong choice of shop. Then I forgot what

dad ate. We shared a plate of goreng pisang which was blehdy syiok. Mum ordered

otah otah. Not so good? There wasnt any fish in it. There was like tons of coconut

and the rempah which was spicy. LOL. After lunch, went to the market to grab some

stuffs. Then went window shopping at Joo Chiat Complex. Rather boring la.

Dad went to Masjid Khalid to pray. And we parked the twin cab beside a car

cause there was like no other space to park. -.- Headed for East Coast. Lepak-lepak

around there. Um.. Shit then I forgot? OH I REMEMBER!! We went to Changi

Terminal 3. Went crazy at Candy *I forgot the last name. HAHA!* . Bought like I dont

know how many types of candy. BUT, FOR ALL I KNOW AND FOR ALL I CARE, I GOT

THE LOLLIPOP I WANTED. LOL! Ok, then we went walking round and round Terminal

3. OH AND I GOT TO PLAY GO KART!! ^^ Blehdy syiok. Though it was only 2 rounds.

Felt like a kid again. Awww. Someone told me something while I was at Changi

Terminal 3. I can't tell. I'm sorry. Then we went to West Coas Park. Ate the karipap

mum bought while we were at Geylang. :D It started to rain. Had hot fudge sundae

(why cant they just call it Chocolate sundae?). Went home. :D

I have some photos. Saw 2 VW beetle.

2009-11-20T19:22:00.002+08:00

The long version

The number version.

They both look like they kena fit. :X

I was told to listen to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. Blehdy obscene video. LOL. Seriously. So I wont upload it here la. Just go watch it on youtube. HAHA! I totally want the song. The "Rah rah ah-ah-ah!Ro mah ro-mah-mahGaga Oo-la-la!Want your bad romance" part is freaking addictive ok. Been stuck in my mind since afternoon. LOL.

2009-11-20T18:52:00.002+08:00

I dont see a point of you yelling at me when you come home. So what if I did nothing at home? It's my holiday. When you had your holiday, have I come home yelling at you and asking why have you not thrown the garbage? Why is there a donut in the box? Why is the newspapers not placed in the store? Have you heated the food already? Now, all you do is come home on the phone with God knows who and yelling at me asking why is there a donut in the box on the dining table. Wtf am I suppose to say? Could you use your brain? If I were to transfer the donut and place it on a plate and put it on the dining table, wouldnt I have to cover it with something? Wouldnt there still be ants invading the donut? What's the difference? Okay, fine I did your way and transfered it on a plate and place it in the fridge. If it hardens and mum wants to eat it, what are you gonna say? Blame me huh? Up to you la. I didnt throw the garbage. Why? What do you expect? Some perompak to pecah masuk our house ah? Up to you lah. Seriously, kalau marah dengan orang lain, jangan nak babitkan me ah. Like hello? What the hell do you expect me to do ah? Ask yourself la. You sleep time Maghrib, did anyone like woke you up? Did anyone switch on and off the lights for you bila Maghrib? Go ask yourself. Kalau pikir pasal diri sendiri aja, might as well hidup dunia sendiri kan?

2009-11-20T17:46:00.002+08:00

Anyhows, look at this kitty. Awww. You see, abang found it the other day. Name, Blondy. Cute kan?! I found it at first. Seriously, I swear. I think I posted it before ? Eh ? Yes ? No? Anyway, I saw this cat at my void deck. It was like "hanging out". And its blehdy adorable ok?! Orang buta je tak tau betape cutenya kucing ni. :D

2009-11-20T17:20:00.002+08:00

I realised that my new skin makes my words really tiny. -.- So, anyway, I'm here you fucker. LOL. I'm sorry. It was just a joke. Some lelaki, so the gatal make me so the meluat anyhow said, "Pandainya! Biasala, my future wife katakan." Eeek. Kalau Eman cakap tu ok uh. Feeling jugak sey. Ni si gay ni pulak yang cakap. Perasaan ke pe boy? Anyway, sebelum dia rembat aku baik aku tukar topic. Right, I'll try writing this in malay. Salam sejahtera ~~murid-murid~~. Whatever siot. My malay is like so the hancur right now. No kidding. I'm not sure what to blog about ?
You've been living for 14 years, 7 months, and 15 days.
You were born on a Wednesday.
Your date of conception was probably 13th July 1994.
You've seen 4 leap years.
Your Zodiac Sign is Aries.
Your Chinese Zodiac Sign is Pig.
Your Ruling Planet is Mars.
Your Birthstone is Diamond.
Your Birth Flower is Daisy.
Your Birth Tree is Rowan Tree.
Your Birth Number is 33.
Time till your next Birthday 135 days 10 hours 31 mins.
Your Lucky Color is Red.
Your Lucky Day is Tuesday.
Your Lucky Number is Nine or Seven.

Found this out in Facebook. ;D

2009-11-19T15:04:00.005+08:00

I feel like breaking down in the middle of the road like a car in desperate need of gas. It's

raining in my mind. Thoughts rushing in all directions. Feelings are mixed forming this

thick substance at the back of my mind. I cannot make up my mind. Be angry, sad, happy,

devastated? You left me with a question. A question that needs an answer. But I dont have

the answer. It's with you. All I have is the question that spins round and round my head

making me feel dizzy. i'm not falling for you anymore. That's what I promised myself. But

why ignore me? What the hell did I do? Everyone especially that bitch is making me feel like

I'm such a loser that I have to suck an egg everyday. I tried being nice. What the fuck did I

get? Some stupid rumours about me. It wasnt I who started th fire. You need friction to

create a fire. Friction causes unwanted heat to be produced. That causes fire. What is

wrong with people? Have you not embarassed me enough? Have you not have fun spreading

rumours about me? Imagine YOU walking past a group of people that sides the other party

and they're whispering things, about you. Yes you. Just be in my shoes for a while. Don't

you think its hurtful to hear people talking bout you. Whispering "Tak serupa wanita

langsung" . If that's not enough, why not you go to the General Office and make an

announcement, "Nur Siti Khadijah binti Azni tak serupa wanita." All you people know is

listen and trust her. What about the other side of the story? My part of the story. Are you

afraid to listen to my side? So far, only a few had listened to both side's stories. If you think

she's such an angel, go ahead and stick around her. Suck whatever story she's telling you.

But after all this, I thank God for blessing me with such wonderful friends who understands

my situation and who are not one sided. All I hope now is for a rainbow to come out and

bring colours to my life again. I need them. I'm tried of living in black and white. All he

knows is to distrupt my thoughts. Asking me who is her boyfriend. I dont know. Dont ask

anymore. I'm tried of answering. I have questions of my one. I'm wondering when we can

begin again. When can we breakthrough this? When can we be like what used to be.

2009-11-18T17:15:00.003+08:00

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,

Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.

People are people, And sometimes we change our minds.

But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm Mmm mmm mmm Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,

Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.

Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,

Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple, Never easy.

Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

And I cant, Breathe,

Without you,

But I have to, Breathe,

Without you, But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.

But people are people,

And sometimes it doesnt work out,

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,

Never easy.

Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

And I cant, Breathe,

Without you, But I have to,

Breathe, Without you,

But I have to.

Its two a.m. Feelin' like I just lost a friend.

Hope you know its not easy, Easy for me.

Its two a.m. Feelin like I just lost a friend.

Hope you know this aint easy, Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,

Never easy. Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Ohhh I cant, Breathe, Without you,

But I have to, Breathe,

Without you, But I have to.

Sorry (oh)

Sorry (mmm)

Sorry (eh eh)

Sorry (mmm)

Sorry (eh eh)

Sorry (mmm)

Sorry

I have to admit, everytime I hear the song Breathe by Taylor Swift feat. Colbie Caillat I end up in tears. Blehdy touching ok the song. Its like you losing your friend and tralalala. Okay I THINK, the hidden meaning is that "I'm sorry" . Its a break up song as what Taylor said. Imagine you breaking up with someone you blehdy-ly loved and have been together for ages. But people change their minds after time. gosh fucktup emo today.

Syabil Sarafian, if you're reading my blog but I know you wont, I know we have forgiven each other but could you just spend 4 minutes to listen to the above song? I was thinking why cant we go back to those days when laughter was part of life and conversations. Why cant we be friends anymore even after forgiving each other? I know what we did in the past was rather harsh but can we start over? All I want is you back in my life. No, I'm not having a crush on you again but I just realised no matter how mean you were, you always knock me back to reality. That's what no one else could do except you. I know its not easy to get back together. But a try would be nice. I tried viewing your blog, sadly its private. Your Facebook, it reminds me of the past. Maybe we could let the past go and breakthrough. Cause I tried but its up to you. I cant do a thing on my own, can I? I mean like getting us back together. I cant be the only one doing this. Like the peribahasa tepuk bersebelahan tangan. Oh shit, is that even the peribahasa? Shit. Anyway what I meant is that you need two hands to clap. Would you be my other hand?

2009-11-17T12:30:00.002+08:00

Hehehehehehehelllllooooooo. :D Ok, stomach cramp is killing me. Anyway, I have got nothing to blog about today other then last Friday night. ;D Reached school earlier then 6 pm. Chatted with Mei Hwa and Jerome then were told to wait outside General Office. -.- Totally bored la. Sat on the chair instad of the floor, it was kinda wet thanks to people who walk there with wet shoes. Skippppppp...... Right, we boarded the bus. I was a loner, so was Jerome. :/ At the Yong Siew Toh Conservatory (is that the name? At NUS uh). We had to sit in our sections which was pathetically only me, Jerome, Mei Hwa and Xin En. Elvis sat with Theva. -.- It was a competition thing la. Anyway, the Flautist won third, Bassoon won second, Trumpeter won first. All of them are from China. -.- So it ended earlier and my family went to Cathay Cineplex to watch 2012. -- I had to go home alone. Dad couldnt fetch me. :( Really felt like an emo la. With the black and red hoodie and the song Battle by Colbie Caillat and Fearless by Colbie Caillat being played on my phone and blasted into my ear. We were waiting for the bus when me, Jerome and Yu Teng was like playing a fool. Calling each other bisexual, curvy, lesbian, gay. LOL. We were laughing like no one's bussiness, literally. LOL. Until one part when they forced me to say I'm bisexual. LOL. I was like "FINE LA! I'M BISEXUAL!" and Ms Straaten was like "Who's the bisexual one?!" and Mr Han "*points to me* She la who else" (yes, he was there) Damn paisey la. Jerome and Yu Teng was like "HAHA! Khadijah bisexual!" -.- Whatever la eh. Then I kept saying my line "Hi, I'm bisexual and I'm straight." LOL

2009-11-16T18:35:00.002+08:00

My whole memory card is SPOILT. Yes, GO AHEAD, BE HAPPY ABOUT IT. I cried my heart out the other day. Gosh. No way I could retreat back. BUT, I have some photos in my bloggeh so, I can save them in my phone. I seriously cursed my memory card la. Thank God, I have a spare one. ;D It comes in handy. Right, Saturday went to Marina Barrage at night. Mum and dad was like prepared for winter. I looked like so minah. Yes, I admit it. Sunday, went to Hay Dairies to see goats since mum wanted to see them then went to Bollywood Veggies. MY FEET GOT SUNTANNED. And now my feet looks weird cause it has like "X" on my feet. Anyway, after that went home. Ponteng my religious class instead, helped to cook at home and then we went swimming. :D Then today had band (REALLY PISSED OFF DURING SECTIONALS) then went to Macs with Jerome, Wei Jie and Mei Hwa (pretty flower! ^^) then we were late for school by 10 minutes only. Reached, met the rest, went for archery. ;D And I scratched my arm. Ouch. But it was fun!

2009-11-13T11:06:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was darn fun! ^^ But sad to say, I lost 200 + photos from my phone. :( All thanks to Sabrina's phone. :( I was like sending photos from her phone to mine via bluetooth and suddenly, bluetooth connection failed and that was when I realized my wallpaper was gone. Checked my pictures, the whole 200+ photos that i saved in my phone memory was gone. YES, GONE! Poof, vanished into thin air. I was seriously on the verge of tears already. :( I was like "OH MEH GOOSE!! WHERE'S MY PICTURES?! *tears wanna roll down cheek liao* ARGH!!! SEZAIRI!!!!" Oh well, thank god I still have thier videos. BUT OH MEHH GOOOOSSEEEEEE. Today, I was like checking for my pictures in my phone and well, it really did vanish into thin air. :'( AND GUESS WHAT?! I REALLY CRIED WHEN MY PHONE SUDDENLY COULDNT READ MY MEMORY CARD!! First I was like "Shit, what in the fucking hell happened to my memory card? *took out memory card*" After giving my phone some rest, I was like prepared to put in the card again and give it another try. This time, my whole external memory folder was gone in my phone. I was like " FUCCCCCKKKKKK. WHAT IN THE FRIGGING HELL DID I DO?! *totally in tears already* " Ok, enough of phone memory. :D LET'S TALK ABOUT YESTERDAY! ^^

Fun, FUN, FUN!!! :D We had our class outing. ;D In actual fact, ONLY 8, YES EIGHT, people from our class went. Shara tagged along too. :D Right, so Sabrina and Shara met me at my void deck then we walked to Pioneer MRT. Met Faustine, top up my Ez-link. Took the train and went to Boon Lay MRT station to meet Aliyah, Lana, Edire, Desmond. Aliyah looked like she was gonna go for a 5 days 4 nights camp, I looked like a music instructor when I carried Faustine's guitar, Desmond looked like a lost China tourist, Shara looked like a dance instructor when she put on her hoodie, Sabrina looked like a normal kid that is WELL PREPARED for an outing, Edrie looked like some mat sesat tak menjadi, Ruvean looked like some undisciplined bussinessman, Lana looked like she was gonna go dancing. LOL. We went to Siloso beach instead of the Palawan beach. :/ Took the tram to reach to the place we thought would be a nice place to settle down. :D Settled down, applied sunblock ~~and suntanned~~ I didnt wanna be any chao tar then i am now. -.- Yes, I tanned myself in order to look like a malay. Seriously. I was born looking like some Japanese girl and so, after much tanning, I now look like one malay girl. ;D Though I still have people saying I look like a chinese but who cares? I love my skin colour (no, I'm not racist)! ^^ Ok, while we were eating and stuffs, heard the thunder. Scared the shit out of us cause we were sitting under a coconut tree AND, above Sabrina's head there was like coconuts ready to fall on her. HAHA! Oh and the beach patrol guy is totally gender biased. Two women brought two dogs into the sea, he just looked. Then when a guy brought in the same dogs into the sea, the beach patrol guy totally talked to him and told him to get out. Then, we moved to the shelter which was nearby to get shelter. ;D Played the guitar, tai ti, stress, Blackjack.... Went crazy and drank Coke followed by Ice Lemon Tea then Coke again this time with Fox's mints. :D Totally awesome! ^^ The others excluding me, Sabrina, Shara went to try the Luge and Skyride which I dont see a point in. Other then wasting money. -.- After everybody was back, went to Vivo to catch a movie. Wanted to watch Coraline but we were 30 minutes late. :/ So watch Astroboy. -.- I was totally against it well since I never loved Astroboy. BUT, at the end of the movie. I cried. No wait. I teared. ;D Went home with Sabrina, she took the shorter way home. :/

2009-11-11T14:14:00.002+08:00

I am darn pokai. Er in other words, ran out of money. Oh meh goose. Is it just me or is there more people that are *er shit I forgot the word okay I'll say the definition* in realtionships that are not from the same racial group. Okay, what the hell am I blabbing about? Yada yada. Skip that whole point ok. ~~God, I am so darn jealous of people in a relationship. That is so darn lust~~ What happened to love, love notes, love poetries. Ahh. The good old days. Writting on a piece of a paper and expressing your love to her/him (See, I'm gender biased). Giving your every tiny little bit of life to her/him. Ok that's it enough of romance and dreams. I have got nothing to talk about other then band. Urgh. One said "Bring back your flute to practice. Piccolo very hopeless." The other said "Dont you try to play the flute ah!" -.- Stupid life. Stupid choices. No wonder people complain that marriage aint an easy thing. :/ tons of choices to make, so little time to think. Just like in exams. :(

2009-11-10T18:48:00.002+08:00

Right, I'll make this post darn short. Come on, it was a boring day at home. My lips hurt and I cant practice a thing. :( and then Mr Wong would say "You didnt practice cause you thik your side reading is really good!" Ya ya whatever la. The truth is, I'm really tired. Yesterday, Mr Wong yelled at me "Ear pain ah?! Then dont play piccolo la! Dont join band at all!" when I merely just touched my ear since it kinda hurt when I played the 3rd Octaves. :( Yeah, and all he thinks is that I am a I-am-a-really-good-piccolo-player. Well, I'm not. No one is. Everyone makes mistakes you know. Even the professional. That's why there is a saying that goes "Practice makes perfect." . Well, I agree with it. I just lacked of practice thats all. Even Izzati complains that its really tough to get to the high G. And all people think is "the smaller the instrument is, the easier it is to get the high note." But sadly, did you know that when you play the piccolo, you tend to go flat at the higher octaves and sharp at the lower octaves. Jason told me that. :D Right, i have to go and start ~~messing the kitchen~~ help mum cook. ;D

2009-11-09T17:24:00.003+08:00

Let's do this.

I love Ben Tennyson.

I love Ben 10.
I love Danny Phantom.
I love Megan Fox.
I love Shia Labeouf.
I love Jesse McCartney.
I love Justin Bieber.
I love Taylor Lautner.
I love Hockey.
I love Paris.
I love Fabregas.
I love Persie.
I love Owen.
I love Torres.
I hate Britney Spears.
I want Apple Pie.

xoxo,
Sabrinaaaaaa. Gerrard Raikkonen/Saberryna

2009-11-09T17:08:00.002+08:00

My lips in my opinion are becoming like rubber band. :/ Seriously. I stretched my lips like alot when I played the piccolo just now. -.- BUT HEY, I MANAGED TO GET MY 3rd octave G. :D Applause please. *applause* Thank you. Now, I know I havent update this blog of mine for ages. I have reasons.
1) After band the other day, I was totally not in the mood.
2) I was seriously feeling sick and yes, on Thursday I had a flu. :/ Despite my blehdy running nose, I had to get out of the house to shop for the snacks for the upcoming class outing.
3) On Friday, I was out nearly the whole day. Ran around Jurong. -.- That sounded so wrong but anyhows la.
4) I was having some trouble with my bloggeh. :/

SYABIL WENT TO LONDON LAST TUESDAY ALREADY!!!!!! Pfft. Nevermind. Right, all I can counclude for last week is, Thursday was a fun day? Minus the part me and Shara was soaked wet even when we had our umberallas. :/ Friday was an effing tiring day. I dont want to talk about it.

SATURDAY!!! DARN SYIOK OK! I GOT SEZAIRI SEZALI'S

AUTOGRAPH!!!! NOW BE JEALOUS!! :D

2009-11-04T17:46:00.002+08:00

I'LL BE IN 3E4 NEXT YEAR!!! FUCKING BITCH!!! ARGH!!! AND TO

MAKE THINGS WORSE, THEY ARE BOTH IN THE SAME CLASS AS

ME!!!! FUCCCCKKKKKK YOUUUUU BITCHHYYYY WHORES!!!

Oh goodness, what an intro. Right anyway, I shall make this post short. As written above, I'll

be in 3E4 next year. Imagine the horror of being in it. Goodness! I have to tahan that bitch

and all the homo sapiens I'm not close with. THA HORROR!!! Pfft. Nevermind. I'm really keen

in POA. Sab got A maths. Same class as me. :D Shara is taking everything that I'm taking AND

WE'RE FINALLY IN THE SAME CLASS AFTER 2 YEARS!! :D Okay so I dropped 2 classes. Not

because of my results (my level position is 52, that means I could have been in E2. Sadly, my

second choice was Category 2) but because of my category choice. Come on. Don't go all

crazy. Remain calm at all times. :D I really hope I get Ms Teo as my English teacher. :/ Well,

she's fun. :D Right, I have to go. I'll post tomorrow. :D

2009-11-03T15:48:00.002+08:00

Funneh. I watched it like more then 5 times, I laughed each time. :D

Goodness, my third post within god knows how many minutes or hours. I would like to

dedicate this song to my loved ones. Uhh. Merepek la. Goodness. I miss him. No, I dont. I miss

his smile. Nope, not a bit. Ok I admit. I miss school. I miss seeing his face. I miss every little

bit of school. I miss every little bit of his smile. I miss every little bit of his warmth. I miss his

food. I miss his "Why are you so emo today huh?" question. I miss his really random laughter.

I miss his eyes. Sadly, I never told him anything.

2009-11-03T15:07:00.002+08:00

Argh! Take a knife and stab me already! -.- Goodness. I'm like rotting at home. Dad called at 8

am in the morning asking if abang has woke up or he'll be late for school. What fuck thing.

Woke up and found out abang was in the toilet. Then I went back to sleep. Woke up again at

9.45 am. Urgh. This time, the darn fan switched off on its own and I was feeling the heat

already. I totally forgot that they had cut off my whole block's electricity supply so that they

can tighten the electricity thingamajig. My phone's battery was like one pathetic bar. Argh.

Decided to wake up and read the newspaper and text Shara and Sulaiman. Fooled Hariz and

told him he won the $50 000 for the Macdonalds thingamajig. Really dumb la. At 10.45 am, I

decided to switch on the fan. :D AND IT WORKED! Blehdy overjoyed. :D Who wouldnt?!

Sadly, I missed Rachael Ray Show. Ah dang it. :/ Everytime I'm up early to catch The Rachael

Ray Show, something pops up. Watched tv. (Martha Stewart is such a bore. I nearly slept on

the sofa while watching her blabbing stuffs. No offence yeah to all Martha Stewarts Fans) Ate

kuih raya (I have not brushed my teeth yet. Well since I was so lazy to drag myself to the

toilet. Shara did the same too!) then dad called and nag then mum called and nag, AGAIN. I

bathed. Then uh. I ate. Then uh. God, my life is such a bore. -.- RIght, after band I have to

buy snacks for the class outing. Why Ms Teo not going?! IT'S GONNA RAIN SOON! ^^ It's been

raining quite heavily for the past few days. :/ Oh and las Saturday, I went swimming. :D At

the Jurong West Swimming complex. :D I went mabok like a drunk woman after that. Too

much slides and mum coaching me to swim. :/ I'm so jealous of the small little kiddies that

can swim. Uh, I guess till here then. Sayonara.:D Je t'aime.

2009-11-03T14:45:00.014+08:00

He is NOT my boyfriend. He's my bestfriend :D

I PUNCHED A HOLE IN MY GUITAR PICK!!

Well hello there. This post shall be FULL with photos. Yes I really do mean it. I just realised

that I havent been uploading much photos. So TADAH! Its all in here. ;D I'll be posting in the

other post. :D

2009-11-02T15:26:00.003+08:00

One of the male reply of Kantoi by Zee Avi. Oh meh goose, I miss her. :D

Goodness her voice is so the, *heavenly*

Bitter heart! ^^

Right, anyway, I had band EARLY in the morning. And I slept at 12 am last night. I looked like a

zombie. :X Ya right anyway, in band had to play piccolo. (I seriously have no idea if I'm a

piccolo player or a flautist) Played this new "marching" song. JASON HAN CAME!!!! Freaked the

shit out of me. :X Cause Mr Philip Han came in first. Then talk talk talk... Suddenly Jason Han

and Mr Wong came in. I was the firs one to notice la. I was like "OMG!! DISASTER!!!" then

end up Mr Wong took us for sectionals. :/ Eeeeww. Had an hour of theory then played that

song then pack up then ~~sleep~~ erm I went home. :D

I wanna go to the TKSS band performance! ^^ Ticket costs $5. I remember its on a Saturday.

And Ms Teo said we could bring along people we know. I'm inviting Izzati. Come on Izzati, tag

along. :D

2009-10-30T17:00:00.003+08:00

I came out with something really stupid. I'm bored! What do you expect?!

I need to tell you the truth that I've learned. All this time I've been running around chasing

boys. Being chased by boys. I was blind not to realize the right person has always been there

for me. Being the shoulder I can cry on. Being there to listen to my rantings. Now I realized it.

But I'm just glued to the start. My mouth glued everytime you speak to me. My body freeze

when I see you. My eyes stare at you. I'm going out of my mind. I need to tell you. Why cant

you realize I'm going crazy? I'm being truthful. I'm thru running around. I'm tired. No one is

better than you, so far. Please come back.

2009-10-30T16:19:00.002+08:00

Weeee. Last day of school! ^^ Had a countdown in my class. No wait, it was 2E4 that started first, then 2E2 and 2E3 joined in. ;D We received the band holiday practice schedule. ^^ 8 practices in total, 1 public performance (I'm dead) , we're going archery and bowling! ^^ OMG!! Been ages since I last played bowling. I'm waiting patiently at home for dad to come home then we'll meet mum at school then collect my report book. :/ I didnt get a B3 for English. :( I guess its a B4? Come on. A B4 would be nice. I need and A1 for Malay. I got a D7 for Maths. :D I told that already. Ms Wong gave us goodies! ^^ A chocolate finger thing (DIJAMIN HALAL! LOL!) and 2 sweets per person. ;D I took nine. Hey, no one stopped me but I shared :D Sharing = Caring! Okay anyway, I wanna talk about yesterday. I forgot to post something. I found out that the Marshmallow the Red Cross sold for charity are not Halal. it freaked me out. No, not because I ate it but I saw a few malay kids i know that ate it. So there's pork fats in the marshmallow. Ammar told me. Well cause Noel showed him the marshmallow bag, then it was written there, "Non-halal food" below it, "pork *the other word for fats. Starts with G*" Anyway, sapa yang dah makan, takpe la hor. Tak tau mah. :D Lain kali check. My earpiece broke. :( Well you know the metal plating at the earpiece, yeah, mine dropped off. So I ransacked abang's drawers to actually find the earpiece sponge thingamajig. It says "audio accessories" on the plastic.

2009-10-29T11:06:00.002+08:00

In school, Saberryna beside me, Edrie and Ammar in front of us. Both fighting. Malay after this, MR ISHAK IS STILL NOT HERE! Go die la! Hmph. Tomorrow is the parent meeting thingamajig. I have to go to school on 4 November 2009. That sucks. To get my results that is. Playing Blackjack on Y8. Playing Disc Pool on miniclip. Facebook, I'm at Ms Rachel Teo's facebook. Oh wow. Guys playing warcraft or something. Hectic. Saberryna is on Friendste. Mine's dead la hor. i couldnt be bothered by it. I WANNA GO HOME!! But home is such a bore. I wanna go out!! OH AND MUM AND DAD ALLOWED ME TO GO TO THE CLASS OUTING!! ^^ Provided, I provide them with my friends' numbers. Urgh. Overprotective = care. That's what I learned. :D Blackjack, here I come. :D No, I'm not addicted to it. :P

SEZAIRI IS HOT HOT HOT! AND HIS MINE, Hanis. :P

2009-10-28T16:53:00.003+08:00

Urgh. Home alone. -.- I think my parents are not allowing me to go out on my own. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONLY GIRL IN THIS FAMILY! -.- Oh nevermind. Okay let's sum up what I did in school today. English periods was such a bore. Read Manja and played with the bubble thing Lana bought for me. Malay period, played with that bubble thing again, watched Coach *something* I can't remember. Then watched Madagascar 2. Okay then recess. Gosh, I nearly sat on my own but oh well sat with Edrie and Ruvean. Then went to Faustine and she totally punched me hard, really hard that I nearly dropped my Mango tea bottle. Okay we were like fooling around when Mrs Tan came. She "begged" us to buy the ice cream and marshmallow. Me: No time la teacher
Faustine: Ya la. Recess gonna be over already
Mrs Tan: Nevermind. Can after school
Me & Faustine: Serious ah?
Mrs Tan: Ya. But you must pay deposit first.
Me: I only have a $10 note
Mrs Tan: No worries! I give you your change
It tool her ages to get my change. Okay after recess, I was like so confident I took out my Mango Tea from my bag when I was at the corridoor and TADAH! Ms Nora was behind. Oops. I think she saw it? Eh? Urgh. Wtv, she didnt yell at me anyway. So I thought she was gonna go to other classes since I saw Ms Felicia Teo during morning assembly and it was Art lesson. Turned out, both Ms Nora and Ms Teo came in to my class. :X Played uno, stress, tai ti, 21, ate Wan Wan, found Lana irritating and yelled at her, drank my Mango Tea and kept peeing. -.- During Science, we lepak with Mr Anwar and took some photos of us using the visualiser. After school, collected the ice cream I bought. Waited for Sulaiman, I got sleepy even after the chocolate ice cream, decided, I couldnt wait any longer, I went home. Some bunch of people kept looking at me. -.- I know them but didnt really see their faces just heard their voices. Wtv. I cannot be bothered by people this days. Mainly because, I dont wish some stranger popped up a gossip bout me and I have to start everything again and, I dont wish to start a fight again after that incident. I have been embarrassed enough.

2009-10-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

Okay, even I'm scared. Wow. Imagine having to run or walk backwards everytime you wanna say something clearly. Poor woman. :(

2009-10-27T16:29:00.001+08:00

Hey hey hello! ^^ Okay. Embarassing day in school. Sabrina, I THANK GOD YOU WEREN'T THERE IN CLASS JUST NOW! ^^ Okay, after recess, I was "over the moon" or whatever the saying is anyway we were laughing and I was trying out Lana's bag (I ♥ it) then, Faustine yelled at me saying there was a lizard under her bag. And her bag was on the floor behind me. I was like "Wth?! Fake la!" Then me and Faustine went to her bag and she lifted her bag and the lizard just popped out there! I WAS SCREAMING AND CLIMBING ON ANY TABLE AND CHAIRS IN SIGHT!!! People were laughing at me! Okay, the longest scream I've ever done. Haha! Felt dumb la! And to make things worse, Ms Cindy Wong came in. LOL! I was still screaming and I was like half kneeling on my chair mainly because Kah Hao pushed the lizard to a side and stepped on it. Crushing it to be exact. I was still screaming and then I realised that people around me was laughing and pointing at me. Then Ms wong approached me then laughed. Everybody was like "The lizard is harmless!" Then Ms Wong told Zikry to pick it up and throw it away. I guess its a baby lizard? Cause it looked small when Zikry carried it. Or maybe due to the fact that Kah Hao squashed it? Eh? Then during Geog, Aliyah or someone suggested to Aliyah that she should view my blog and publish it. I was like "What?! Eh oi! Don't!" Mr Suhaimi was "aiya! Your blog public mah!" -.- Sickening. :S

2009-10-26T21:31:00.001+08:00

I love this! "Why does love always feel like a battlefield!?"

Pfft. I cant upload any photos mainly because My computer cannot open that file. Fuck. Hence, more videos from Youtube! ^^ No, pornography, sorry to dissapoint you all, LOL. I'm really obssessed with Colbie Caillat! ^^

Magic nope, its not Colbie singing. Its some girl called Natalie Ann. Colbie is beside her. OMGOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY HAVE TAYLOR SWIFT'S FEARLESS PLATINUM ALBUM!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!

So that's gonna be her cover.

AUDIO CD

1. NEW! "Jump Then Fall"

2. NEW! "Untouchable"

3. NEW! "Forever & Always (Piano Version)"

4. NEW! "Come In With The Rain"

5. NEW! "SuperStar"

6. NEW! "The Other Side Of The Door"

7. "Fearless"

8. "Fifteen"

9. "Love Story"

10. "Hey Stephen"

11. "White Horse"

12. "You Belong With Me"

13. "Breathe (Featuring Colbie Caillat)"

14. "Tell Me Why"

15. "You're Not Sorry"

16. "The Way I Loved You"

17. "Forever & Always"

18. "The Best Day"

19. "Change

VIDEO DVD

MUSIC VIDEOS

1. "Change"

2. "The Best Day"

3. "Love Story"

4. "White Horse"

5. "You Belong With Me"

"ON THE SET"

BEHIND THE SCENES

AT THE MUSIC VIDEOS

1. "Love Story"

2. "White Horse"

3. "You Belong With Me"

ADDITIONAL PLATINUM CONTENT

1. Fearless Tour 2009 Photo Gallery

2. Fearless Tour 2009 First Show Behind The Scenes

3. CMT Awards "Thug Story" (Featuring T-Pain)

But sadly, I dont know if its available in Singapore. :( Even if it is, where the hell am I gonna get the cash from?! OMG!! I SO WANT IT!!! ARGH!!!! Oh and its released tomorrow.

2009-10-26T19:36:00.002+08:00

Call me on the phone today

Said those words u always say

And I cry

Gotta figure out what's going on inside this head of mine

I'll try

Going crazy thinking 'bout the way I shouldn't have left it all by

Now I'm gone and something's wrong I changed my mind

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do, this time

Although you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind.

Saw you just the other day, feelings never went away

I smile

Told you I'll be back and I want us to be friends and be alright.

Don't know what to say, it's been harder everyday but it takes time

You should know, I'm coming home, stand by...

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do, this time

Although you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind

As time passes by, I fall asleep without you by my side

Ooh out of my mind, remembering the way we were...

I'm so in love with you, I don't know what to do, this time

Although you're out of sight, you're never ever out of my mind

Okay so I have to confess something. Wait, there's a few stuffs actually.
Firstly, I miss Syabil Sarafian. :( I miss our late night blur sotong conversations.
Secondly, I'm really exhausted. Imagine me cooking porridge (well... It turned out *speechless*) and mushroom soup in a day.
Thirdly, I realized that my appetite is going wild. I'm eating anything that can be eaten that is in sight. -.-
Forth, I realized that I've been running around lately and I found out that he is the one for me. Wait. That sounded somehow wrong and partly right.
Fifth, I need oil pastels really badly. I cannot draw with colour pencils! T.T
Six, I think I'm gonna put on lots of weight during the holidays.
Seventh, I'M GOING OUT OF MY MIND!

You can say I camped at home today. Seriously. All I ate was take away food and canned food. Mum is sick. Sent her to the clinic in the frigging morning. Well, I had no school. The phone conversation was something like this when dad woke me up.

Dad: Hello?
Me: Urgh! Hello?!
Dad: Adik! Wake up! Help me send mama to clinic. I'm in the train on my way to work.
Me: Huh? What time is it? Where's mama?
Dad: *ignoring me for a few seconds* Wake up! Send mama to clinic!
Me: WHERE'S MAMA?!
Dad: In her room la!
Me: Oh really? *check phone for the time, freaked out when it was only 7.52 am*
Dad: Yes
Me: Okay. I send her later.

Goodness. When we reached, there was like a lot of people outside the clinic. Registered mum then waited patiently. Our number was 25 and the number that was on that blehdy screen was 2. 25-2=23 -.- So we waited and waited. The doctor skipped alot of numbers. Then it was mum's turn. Found out she got food poisoning. AND I found out she and dad went to Bedok Corner yesterday and had fried oysters. -.- So maybe, the oysters are not fresh or not fully cooked? Okay, wtv. Then dad called and asked if we have left, so I said no. This is the conversation.

Dad: YO!
Me: Er, hello?
Dad: Give me 20-25 minutes and I'll fetch both of you
Me: Okay, where to wait?
Dad: At the bus stop near the DYI shop.
Me: *total blank* Huh? Where got bus stop? I wait for you at the Macdonalds la
Dad: Have la! The bus stop near that DIY shop
Me: Where got DIY shop?!
Dad: Eh, where are you at?
Me: Pioneer Mall la. Where else can I be?
Dad: Oh you not at Gek Poh ah? haha! I thought you at Gek Poh.
Me: Aiyo. Okay I'll wait there la

2009-10-25T14:17:00.001+08:00

Goodness! I dont wanna got for kelas remaja. Flu, please go away. Anyway. First thing first,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ABANG KHALIQ! ^^
Yay! (Get me a present next year hor. After all that food and shopping AND THAT WALLET. P/s: KWAY TEOW GORENG KE PER?!)

Okay, I had LOTS of fun yesterday. The whole family went to Arnolds at City Plaza. (can you believe it? I didnt even know where it was until Faqih told me.) I ordered the Fish & Chips. The fish, okay I suggest you dont buy it. :D The fish is so the hancur. -.- Anyway, after Arnolds we went to Vivo (Mum, dad and abang was somehow quarreling to go to Vivo or Orchard -.- I couldnt be bothered since I had earpiece in my ear. ^^) to get abang his wallet oh and mum blanja us for Arnolds and paid for abang's wallet. Then we walked around Vivo and I fell in love with one cardigan. :D It had a hoodie!! ^^ Right right right, anyway, after all that walk and me complaining to Shara how my legs was aching and my back was hurting, we went to West Coast Park's Macs. Actually, we had the McCafe thing. Okay so me and abang had DOuble Chocolate Frappe, dad had the Moccachino frappe (and I drank a bit of it, it was seriously, awakening) and mum had the moccachino large. GOSH, THE CUP FOR THE MOCCACHINO WAS SERIOUSLY, LARGE. We head home and! ABANG DIPERBODOH-BODOHKAN!! Wakakakakaka!! :D

Okay so overall, I'm quite jealous. Haha! Come on, this year, I had a chance to buy my own phone with my own money that is but dad pays for my bills. :D I got a Puma bag and a cake from kakak Aya. Last year or last 2 years, I remember I was brought to QiJi (the food is heavenly) for dinner. :D Okay, I guess thats it?

2009-10-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

I'm just thinking about that time when I met you

But now I'm thinking about how I can forget you

You had my heart from the start but it faded

I needed space for someone else

I had to leave you just to realize that I miss you

Now I don't know what I did

I'm runnin around baby

I'm runnin around without you baby

I'm runnin around all over town

But I look everywhere and no one compares

Because nothing's as good if I'm without you

I am hoping that you try to forgive me

Maybe we can fall in love again completely

You had my heart don't you ever forget that

I'm coming back for it I promise you

I had to leave you just to realize that I need you

Now I'm changing, I can't take this

Runnin around baby

I'm runnin around without you baby

I'm runnin around all over town

But I look everywhere and no one compares

Because nothing's as good if I'm without you

Do you think that I could have one more try

I promise you that I will always stand by you

Cause I am through with

Runnin around baby

I'm runnin around without you baby

I'm runnin around all over town

But I look everywhere and no one compares

Cause nothing's as good if I am

Runnin around baby

I'm runnin around without you baby

I'm runnin around got my feet on the ground

And I'm missin your face, I'm going insane

Because nothing's as good if I'm without you

I am runnin' around all over town

But I look everywhere and no one compares

Because nothing's as good if I'm without you

I remember I'm suppose to post something but I just cant figure out what?

Oh wait!! I remember!! I GOT A D7 FOR MATHS AND A B3 FOR HOME ECONS!! AND I GOT A B3/ B4 FOR GEOG!! DRASTIC IMPROVEMENT! OMG! OVERJOYED!! ^^

Malay, i think Cikgu Ishak can sleep with the papers la hor. Keep it to yourself. :P Till now I still have not receive my malay paper 1. That is so making me go crazy! :/

Morning assembly was hilarious! Okay wait. It was after morning assembly. We went to the hall and watch the 3 top videos for PW. HAHAHAHAHA!! Our class had 2 videos! E3 had 1! haha! WONDERBRA!

2009-10-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

I would call it a pain in the arse. Week is purely, devastating, buat blood boil, I feel dumb. Okay. Let's start. I got my results yesterday. Wooo! No wait. I take that back. BOOHOO. -.- My marks and well grades (so far):
Maths: E8. Wait. It was an F9 before 5 marks moderation.
English: C5, if I'm not wrong that is.
History: 54/100
Physics: 68/100 (^^)
Malay: Paper1: ? (Mr Ishak didnt come to school. Tsk.)
Paper2: 51/70 (It was suppose to be 52, I'll tell later)

I feel extremely dumb today. Bold EXTREMELY. Gosh. Okay, so firstly, morning assembly, I saw Ms Rachel Teo's hair (it looks cute). And I went "OMG! IS THAT RED?!" I was like half yelling half talking. o.o Anyway, during English I was like asking everybody the same stupid question. "Do we have to sign?" When Ms Teo already told us we have to sign it. -.- During Malay, I was being honest, yes, HONEST. Mr Zubir marked my paper wrongly. For bina ayat section, I got 8/9 but Mr Zubir worte 9/9 on the front page. I calculated the thing like god knows how many times and I got 51/70 instead of 52/70 . A mark matters to me. Yes, it does. Right anyway, i was telling Vince who sat behind me and bothe Vince and Aliyah screamed when my mark was deducted. -.- So now its a tie for me and Vince. Pfft. Zikry, I'm not talking to you. Okar so we had some I & E carnival thingamajig. I sweated like alot. AND I SWEAR,IF YOU WERE TO GIVE ME A LARGE PAIL, I CAN FILL IT TO THE BRIM WITH MY SWEAT. God. Okay so I dedicated a song, if you heard it, keep it to yourself. GOODNESS! REALIZE WAS THE ONLY COLBIE CAILLAT'S SONG THAT THEY HAVE! -.- Sadly I didnt dedicate it to someone specific. I just said "someone". Anyway, band was irritating, pain in the arse, insulting. Had to practice our third octave A, Bflat, B and C. I went deaf. Out of tune AND yeah the high notes made me and Jerome see stars. I dont want to talk about band anymore. I feel so frustrated when I talk about it.

I ♥ SEZAIRI!!

This post is 2 days late. :D

2009-10-19T16:18:00.001+08:00

I forgot to blog about something. You see, on last Friday, Fazurah told me that Sri told her that Sri was told to convey a message to me and Fazurah. The message was from Jolyna. SO the message is "Jolyna has written something about Khadijah (me) and Fazurah. She (Jolyna) wants me and Fazurah to read it." Soooo, on 17.10.2009 which is a Staurday, I asked Sri for the website of Jolyna's tagged so that I could read it. But, Sri said she forgot what's the web address hence, she asked Jolyna. Then Sri sent me a reply from Jolyna, "For u to find out n for me to knw.."
And so my reply was
"could you use that brain? How am i going to read what you wrote about me when i dont have your LAME web address? I dont have all day to bother searching for your address reason being i am not that free and if you want to say something bout me, go ahead and spit it out right in my face. SInce we're leaving in the 21st century, there is something called mobile phone which you use to text and call people"
and then this what Jolyna replied.

"uat ape? mls lah sey.. uat ape adq dier psl my taggd.. my taggd iz betwn mie n myslf.. i dun 1 her in it.. "

And again I replied, "It wasnt i who told myself "eh jolyna ada tulis something for you and fazurah to read in her tagged. Dia nak kau baca." wasnt it her who told you, sri khaliesah, to convey the message that i have to go to her tagged web address and read what she has written about me and fazurah?"

Sri was the one who helped me send my replies to Jolyna and Sri also helped Jolyna to send me her replies. Right anyway, all I want to say is, can you please make up your mind? I mean, I cannot be bothered by you anymore. i have not disturb you or anything for the past god knows how many months. What more do you want? I'm fine with you posting things about me on the internet but come on, all I can say is whatever for do you want to post about me? Am I too interesting that you HAVE to post something bout me? Okay, so maybe it MIGHT be an apology letter, so? If you want to say something about/to me, SAY IT IN MY FACE. Have you got no guts? Or do I look scary enough to shoo you away? I dont get you. I'm all over the past. I let bygons be bygons. ~~And I use Mortein Ultra!~~ If you wanna carry on with the past, go ahead la. I cannot be bothered by your threatens. Aku hidup dunia aku, kau hidup dunia kau. Senang? I've had enough of fighting. I remember apologizing to you on the eve of Hari Raya. Dont say I did nothing.

2009-10-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

To Sulaiman, I'm sorry for always being an irritant. I didnt mean to. There's just this thing about you that makes me feel like there is someone who understands me even when all else fails. No, I dont wanna be more than friends. I have made up my mind. Let's just be friends :D Come on! You rock man! Seriously. Thank you for being there when I needed you there. ^^

Oh blimey! I havent got a present for my brother, shit.

2009-10-19T15:09:00.000+08:00

I hate the PC in my brother's room. Hmph. I cannot even open the Internet and god knows what happened to the Mozilla Firefox in that computer. -.- Now, I'm stuck with the PC outside. Thank goodness this one has both Mozilla and Internet Explorer ^^ . But, the typing is rather slow. -.- Right, not much to blog. I was suppose to go out, watch movies and go shopping with Hanis, Sabrina and Shara, sadly and damn it, dad last minute said I cannot go. Like wtf? What does he expect me to do at home? Rot at home? Might as well chain me at home and let me stone here. -.- Urgh. Woke up with a throbing head.

I dont know why, but I feel like telling someone something but I just cant figure out who and what I wanna say. :S This sucks. -.- OH SHIT JOURNAL NOT DONE! oh nevermind. I WANT OIL PASTELS!!! D:

2009-10-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

Ah. Okay this is a post for today. I dont know why but I guess this week is like my most embarassed week. Oh my. Refer to previous post (that is directly below this post, my dears), go learn what embarassing thing happened at Macs while having breakfast with Shara. Urgh. Today, oh my. I hate my stomach cramps. Its like the 6th day and I'm like still having cramps that kills! -.- Anyway, I was like rather active the whole day. Result: I drank too much Mango Tea, made me had this urgency of going to the washroom. Wen to the washroom during History, tadah! I freaked out *you know I know what happened. You dont, try to paham paham aja la eh* went back to class, read a book by Alexandra Potter. :D It's called Me and Mr Darcy. Nice book I guess? ANYWAY, during English was the period that really killed me. I was freezing cold, my stomach cramp was killing me slowly, we watched a movie called Love Me If You Dare. Some French movie. Really cool. After school, had to tebalkan muka and asked around for you know I know. Was so embarassed. Thank God Aliyah was there! ^^

2009-10-16T17:51:00.001+08:00

I fnally found the original video! ^^

Yeah.. So today woke up at 9+, slept, woke up again, switched on the computer to check what books did Alexandra Potter wrote (I'm so addicted her books although I've just read one but hey, I love it!) since I'm going to the library later. At 10, bathed and rushed out of the house. Half way walking to Pioneer Mall, turned back looked at the gloomy sky and realised that dad had hang the laundry AND the windows are not shut! SHIT! Yeah. Had breakfast at Macs with Shara since she craved for the hotcakes or pancakes? Whatever its called. I ordered the same thing just that mine had the sausage. It has been ages since I last had breakfast at Macs. C'mon I'm effing lazy to wake up early. -.- Right, I hate pancakes. Gosh! It was so effing embarassing! I was like cutting the pancake AND I wanted to pick it up suddenly *BOOM!* okay that's exaggerating, it just fell *flop* on my jeans. ON MY EFFING NEW JEANS!! -.- Thought that was bad, something worse happened. The freaking kinfe SLIPPED out of my hand while I was holding it. EFFING PISSED AND PAISEH!
-.- there was a group of BLSS-ian there. -.-

After breakfast, rushed home shut the windows, bring in laundry went out to the library. Had to carry 2 damn thick novels that mum wanted. I borrowed a Calvin & Hobbes book, Me and Mr Darcy, and a malay book. Went home looking like a geek. Switched on computer and received a message from Hanis saying that Ms Norlin has passed away. Yes people, Ms Norlin Sani, a teacher from Jurong West Primary School, has passsed away on Wednesday, 14.10.2009
Baca kan la Al-Fateha moga Allah swt akan ampuni dosa dosa beliau. Amin.

This post is 2 days late.

2009-10-12T11:21:00.000+08:00

Hey! Sorry uh didnt post for like erm okay nearly 2 weeks I guess. I was busy with exams, studying and HARI RAYA! Yes, I went out with the 2E2 kiddies and the Jurong West Primary School kiddies. -.- BUT I got $246! ^^ But I spend like I guess nearly $60 if not I could have like still have $300+ hmph but oh well, at least I bought Colbie Caillat's albums! ^^ (and her song Little Things was on Privileged) Okar anyway, exams.. Well, kind of okay. EXCEPT for maths. Oh my. Kill me. No wait. Don't wanna talk about it. :P

2009-10-01T18:20:00.003+08:00

I'm still feeling the rain fall

bouncing off my skin

How long do I have to wait for

The sun to shine again

Come on and paint me the rainbows

i can follow it

I dont know where it will take me

but I like wondering

wherever you are

where will you be

Are you the same or

Dreaming after waiting only for me

Waiting for love

Waiting for the same or

Dreaming on the other side

Hoping no matter how far I'll find my way to you

Following a rainbow

ooh oooh ooh ooh yeaaa

I'm gonna stop in the middle

Hang my feet off the edge

I got no reason to worry

I know I'll find the end

That's where you'll be waiting

I hope you don't forget

That I wont quit till I find you

No matter the risk

wherever you are

where will you be

Are you the same or

Dreaming after waiting only for me

Waiting for love

Waiting for the same or

Dreaming on the other side

Hoping no matter how far I'll find my way to you

Following a rainbow

oooh oooh ooh ooh woooah

stuck in my mind

im wasting time

still on my own

I never thought that I would find my way

Into the light

Dreaming to find

Who ever you are

where will you be

are you the same or

dreaming on the other side waiting for me

waiting for love

waiting for the same or

dreaming on the other side

hoping that no matter how far i'll find my way to you

following a rainbow

ooooh ooooh oooh wooah YEA YEA YEAAAAAAAAA

I know im gonna find it i know

i know im gonna find it i know im gonna find it

I'm never gonna let you go

i know im gonna find it

i know im gonna find it

i wont let you go

followin followin following a rainbow

followin followin following a rainbow

followin followin following a rainbow

My mood: Refer to the above song. ;D It's like really catchy :D

Compare the two photos. Clearly I'm the one on top and my brother is the one below with the dolls at TKC. P/s: Tengok mana aja la si Abang ni. -.- Zaza tak cukup kah?

Dad

My watch and bag. -.-

wanted to be a part of the doll family :D

2009-10-01T12:17:00.000+08:00

Urgh. Malay class is such a bore. .__. Malay paper was yesterday. Easy i have to say. The dialog question was the same as the Mid Year Examinations. -.- Oh mi gosh la. -.- I completed the paper within the first 45 minutes. I got so bored I started vandalising on the table and we had so much fun passing stuffs using the OHP trolley. :D Zikry and Edrie didnt get a chance to do so because they were seating at the second row. English today was, fun? I do not look like my brother Ms Teo and I am not a photocopied version of him. ._. He is so tanned and I'm like "fair" . Dont believe? Go to his blog
notty-little-secrets.blogspot.com
He is like so different from me. Like really different.
I'll post later. I'm in school. :P

GOING FOR JALAN RAYA TOMORROW!! ^^ With the 2E2-ians and some non malay kids :D
Yay! Sabrina, tell your mum to cook only for us and not for them :D

I ♥ ?

2009-09-29T15:52:00.000+08:00

It's so cute :D ^^ Seriously.

Exams has started. -.- English was just now. Oh how "interesting"
I dont wanna talk much. Been having mixed feelings for the past few weeks. I wanna talk to someone but I can't figure out who.

2009-09-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

Effing cool. hoho.

Home Econs Practical Exam was a DISASTER. Oh, it's worse than tsunami. -.- No kidding la. Last practical practice, we cooked chicken rice and I nearly fainted, rings a bell? Yeah, this time, I scalded my index and middle finger. A total ouch thing. How it happened? I was soaping the cooker and my fingers totally kena the god knows what it is and tada! Scalded. Didnt tell Mrs Tan though. Mainly cause I thought I didnt scald my fingers and I only realised I did when I was washing the dishes and stuff and the pain was like stinging.

My poor fingers. ._.

-.- Omg lorh! Okay okay. Home ec was eee. Other than me scalding my ~~cute~~ fingers, I screw up everything. Literally. I cut the carrots and cabbage, well, I guess its okay? Eh? Okay the cooking part was like "Oh gosh! I cannot light up the fire!!" Only to realise that I didnt switch on the plug. -.- Retarded me. Okay not only that, my noodles turned out to be mushy and the soup, oh wow, it flooded my noodles. :X

2009-09-24T18:30:00.000+08:00

"Good example of singlish man" - Faustine Anne U. Milo
WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA!! Okay I was like at youtube and decided to like post this. :D ZEE-BRAAAAA. Bigini. HAHAHAHAHA!! Ms Teo showed us before our oral. Shara kept saying "BOOMS" all week. LOL.

I told mum I wanna get this car when I'm older. :D So cute eh? ^^ Volkswagen Beetle :D Shara wanna get a black if I'm not wrong.
http://plainblack.co.uk/images/large/cap_corduroy_hat_plain_black_LRG.jpg (I'm really dying to get this cap) Idk why. :D

Today. Oh the worst day of the week. Urgh. I mean it. Firstly, I woke up late. Secondly, I thought I was still on time thanks to the clock in my room that is always 10 minutes faster, but today it was actually 10 minutes LATE. Oh how marvellous. -.- Then I got ready and ate breafast, as usual a bowl of Trix and a cup of milo. :D Okarrrr. Then dad left and I continued eating and I was still early and it was like around 7.15 am when I left home in a hurry. -.- So I locked the door, put on my shoes and I had already put on my shoe. Yes, SHOE. The left one to be exact. So I have this habit of actually hittting the shoes before putting them on. So I was like hitting the right one and there was like a few ants around my shoes. I was like "eh? How come ah?" Banged my shoe on the floor and OH WOW, THE ANTS HAS INVADED MY SHOE. OH MY GOSH. I totally freaked out la! Seriously I ran back to the door and grab my keys from my pocket and took my new shoes. So while putting the new one on, it was already 7.20 am and the sky was like really really really RED. Orange red I guess? It was drizzling. Okar anyway.. I then realised that the reight shoe, the shoe lace was like totally gone. Yes, gone. I had to search for it and oh well found it in the shoe. -.- I was seriously, pissed. No kidding. Tsk. I didnt even get to tie my shoelace I just ran to the lift and went down and Shara was all sour. :X It was drizzling, making us wet. Reached school like, really late. Then it was English. Totally forgot about my letter. :X Er, dont wanna talk about it. Maths was fun I guess? PW was stress relieve period. Went to Facebook. :D Malay was omg, I hate malay periods with him. :S I forgot to do my journal. I had to well.....lie. I had no choice!!
CIkgu saya tak boleh hantar jurnal hari ini
Mengapa?
Saya tertinggalkan nya di rumah
Esok hantar
Saya boleh lari rumah nanti
Boleh?
Boleh. Rumah saya dekat

The main reason I didnt wanna submot tomorrow is cause, I dont want him to spoil my day. Idk why? Lit was fine. We totally had spontaneous scripts. -.-
Recess.. I'm a mood spoiler dont wanna talk about it.

2009-09-23T18:12:00.001+08:00

I like. :D

Yesterday, was HILARIOUS. During Geog (Mr Suhaimi wasnt in and we had some teacher that came a period LATE) SABERRYNA, yes that jiwang partner of mine became my hair stylist. OH HOW "AMAZING". HAHA. I was tying up my hair when Sab was like "I WANNA TRY TYING YOUR HAIR!!!" And I was like "I WANNA TIE LA DEY!" And so she totally just tie my hair la. -- tsk. And then it was my turn to ~~cut~~ tie her hair. SO cute. Her hair I mean. :D then we were like "WE'RE GONNA CUT YOUR HAIR, GONNA HIGHLIGHT IT, GONNA COMB IT YADA YADA YADA" Haha. AND EUGENE DIE DIE WANNA SEE A GHOST! Haha. So Priya grant his wish. :D

Eh kalau nak jalan raya text me leh. :D JWPS-ian cannot be like last year hor! Screw up.
And I really think Ms Teo has boyfriend? Eh? Was reading Kelly's journal. OH ANYWAY, THANKS MS TEO FOR RETURNING MY HUBBY! ^^ I know he's heavy. :D

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-22T17:43:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!! :D
Maaf zahir dan batin. Jika tersilap kata atau terkasar bahasa, harap dimaafkan. Kerana saya hanya insan yang biasa.

P/s: I know I'm late but hey HARI RAYA last for a month. Come on! Be thankful I wished you guys :D
P/ss: Erm.. Duit raya lebih ya ibu ibu bapa bapa. Okay stop it Nur Siti Khadijah Azni. Muka tak malu. Tsk. -.- But oh well, Ilovethepeoplewhogavemethecash. :D Especially that ms ~~katek~~ Rachel Teo. Hoho.

Rightttt.. After school, went to Jurong Point (no it aint wrong to rush to the nearest CD shop near your school) with Shara, bought Cavana, I mean the sausage (I was tempted lah). Then we went to some shop and we could only find Colbie Caillat's Breakthrough. So went to erm Popular and bought Coco Deluxe Edition and Breakthrough Deluxe Edition. :D Omg. Was so overjoyed! ^^

Hari Raya is EFFING fun. :D Oh gosh. Yesterday counted the total amount of cash I got and *drum rolls* THE AMOUNT WAS $206 ^^ Dad and mum gave me $50 ^^ Okay so erm. Here are the pictures!! ^^

:D We ordered Halal Roasted Duck for Hari Raya (NO NOT ARWAH MR ROSLAN!)

:D Semangat JWPS-ian uh. Okay totally like 2 weeks back photo. HOHO

A day before Hari Raya.

Clearly, bored

The curtain that I put up on my own. :D Well it was my first successful attempt.

Morning of Hari Raya after I took ages to put on the clothes (NO, I do not support Bala)

Well, the others took ages to get ready. -.-

After I took ages to actually comb my hair and pin it up and stuff, dad suddenly told me to pakai tudung. Urgh?

Every year, my grandaunt gives us $3 . Cool sia :D

Cute sia the sampul :D

Well, the inside of it. :D

Well hello there Ahmad Yasin ^^

Its called creativity. :D Yes, its a KitKat with a two dollar pasted on it and wrapped. ;D

L: Colbie Caillat, Breakthrough M: Colbie Caillat, Coco R: Taylor Swift, Fearless

The back part

Kelly made that for me :D Last Friday